tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-94615562011-04-22T05:07:48.447+08:00nth much abt me...a simple girl who always like to think alot....all i wanted for life is a simple life with my loved oneslihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.comBlogger1021100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-48617599544569089122007-10-23T12:44:00.000+08:002008-11-19T03:58:14.197+08:00already my 6th week in shanghai le...been to quite many places... i do miss singapore some time tot:)<br /><div><div><div><div><div><br /><div>quick updates to places i have been to...</div><br /><div><strong>zhejiang</strong> sept30th - a day trip to watch a strange phenomenon where the river flows against its own current due to the change in tide hence causing the sea water current to wash up the river mouth...tot was only a day trip but it was a tiring one because we got to squeeze the bus like pancakes n the bus journey was super rocky..btw, zhejiang is at the outskirts of shanghai in another province where u see the truly china life...</div><br /><div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124390910164075410" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 310px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 220px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" height="188" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx1-YfKSA5I/AAAAAAAAABs/rEEe5NDKP8w/s320/zhejiang+(17).jpg" width="274" border="0" />me caught in action while watching the change in current... <span style="font-size:78%;">(photo taken up jh)</span></div><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx1_OvKSA6I/AAAAAAAAAB0/v6eRkVxTqBY/s1600-h/P9300342.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124391842171978658" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx1_OvKSA6I/AAAAAAAAAB0/v6eRkVxTqBY/s320/P9300342.JPG" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx1_jfKSA7I/AAAAAAAAAB8/07GFBSguvIg/s1600-h/P9300347.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124392198654264242" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx1_jfKSA7I/AAAAAAAAAB8/07GFBSguvIg/s320/P9300347.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><br /><br /><div><br /></div><br /><br /><p><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span></p><br /><br /><div><br /></div><div><br />guys acting cool... girls watching meteor??</div><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2AyvKSA8I/AAAAAAAAACE/WdynUEYGUd8/s1600-h/SANY0176.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124393560158897090" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" height="223" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2AyvKSA8I/AAAAAAAAACE/WdynUEYGUd8/s320/SANY0176.JPG" width="305" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /></div><br /><br /><div><br /></div><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>a cute boy we meet on the bus..</div><br /><br /><div><strong>nanjing</strong> 05-07 oct - to the west of shanghai;went to visit brandon, jiahui n boyan..this city is small as compared to shanghai but it is one of the biggest small cities besides shanghai n beijing le..nth much to do besides the Sunzhongsan mountain that we climbed..wah, i havent exercised for v long n this climb really make me feel super unhealthy n tiring..btw, i skipped breakfast in the day so halfway during the climb i got to take in mentos to replenish my sugar level lor...if nt i will roll down the hill!</div><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2DEPKSA9I/AAAAAAAAACM/rmgnKaai9bg/s1600-h/P1060110.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124396059829863378" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2DEPKSA9I/AAAAAAAAACM/rmgnKaai9bg/s320/P1060110.JPG" border="0" /></a> <a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2D3fKSA-I/AAAAAAAAACU/BqNpARQ9tTY/s1600-h/P1060032.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124396940298159074" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2D3fKSA-I/AAAAAAAAACU/BqNpARQ9tTY/s320/P1060032.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /></div><br /><br /><div><br /></div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div><br /></div><br /><br /><div><br /><br /></div><div><div>the shanghai pple in dongnai university</div></div></div><br /><div><br /><div>right pic - all the guys without me:(</div><br /><div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124397803586585586" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2EpvKSA_I/AAAAAAAAACc/UaUtzk253Yw/s320/nanjing+053.jpg" border="0" /></div></div></div></div></div><p>is me!! sorry i wearing weird attire coz i have limited clothings!!</p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5124398692644815874" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/Rx2FdfKSBAI/AAAAAAAAACk/lGxfveI2VJQ/s320/nanjing+070.jpg" border="0" />this is nanjing!! see how high i climb??<br /><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-4861759954456908912?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-39117272304435835782007-10-04T23:39:00.000+08:002008-11-19T03:58:16.070+08:00<div><br /><br /></div><div><br /><div><br /><div>yeah! finally i can blog le!! okie this is already my 3 weeks into shanghai le... quick update fr the past few weeks ba :)<br /></div><br /><br /><div>first week went hopping ard the city looking for houses to rent...rem was a super tiring day because we went to see abt 10 over houses in a day...finally we decided on a penthouse near to our sch!! although rent was a bit high but nt bad because it was quite worth it..n i have my own room!! <img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117507979789720946" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUKZNaX3XI/AAAAAAAAAAU/AACMR9FVnVU/s320/PA010352.JPG" border="0" /></div><br /><div><br /><div><br /><div>my lovely pinky bed!!thick quilt with my pooh bear...</div><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117523377247477170" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUYZdaX3bI/AAAAAAAAAA0/HKsa7WgCSbc/s320/PA010359.JPG" border="0" />our living room ...<br /><br /><br /><p>we also went to the shanghai bund...with all the colonel buildings n orangy lighting...beautiful... ...it was super crowd even on a normal day. we even tried the bin tan hu lu...hmrr...well, weird taste...sweet n sour...the fruit was sour but it was coated with a thick layer of sweet honey...luckily i only ate one! lets see them eating!</p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117522428059704722" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUXiNaX3ZI/AAAAAAAAAAk/dKuq2o6ENJw/s320/P9210438.JPG" border="0" />qibao trying v hard to swollen his second n last piece!</div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117523037945060770" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUYFtaX3aI/AAAAAAAAAAs/Rn3LAMajGO8/s320/P9210434.JPG" border="0" /> weilun n his disgusted look...</div><br /><div><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117523759499566530" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUYvtaX3cI/AAAAAAAAAA8/4uXtb9reSqw/s320/P9210439.JPG" border="0" />the nonchalant face of jiehao's... </div><br /><div>on their national day which was on the 1st oct..we went to shanghai bund again:) wah this time the highway was blocked n pple were all walking on it....believe me, china has nth but alot alot alot of pple!! well, although there wasnt anything specially going on at the bund, we went there to feel the crowd n the atmosphere... here are some pics we had while having fun!</div><br /><div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117524227651001810" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUZK9aX3dI/AAAAAAAAABE/SBYJtUMaXyQ/s320/P1050860.JPG" border="0" />qibao n me taking against the wonderful trusses above us!! we didnt forget we are archit students:)<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117525791019097570" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUal9aX3eI/AAAAAAAAABM/MB_0mRbl6RE/s320/shanghai+015.jpg" border="0" />haha! my bunny ears n jiehao's evil ears!! cutie?? </div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117526263465500146" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUbBdaX3fI/AAAAAAAAABU/EouV9Vj5Fg4/s320/shanghai+014.jpg" border="0" />me, colin, qibao, huijing n weilun..jiehao taking photo... the tower behind us is the famous cctv tower:)</div><br /><div><br /></div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117526800336412162" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUbgtaX3gI/AAAAAAAAABc/cQVbNAkxaHw/s320/PA010408.JPG" border="0" />sing army vs china army.... spot the row of miliary guards at the back...</div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5117528088826600978" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RwUcrtaX3hI/AAAAAAAAABk/6NhrhF6nGp8/s320/P1050877.JPG" border="0" />me n my piggy face!!!cute cute??? hahah!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><p></p><br /><br /><br /><br /><p></p><br /><br /><br /><br /><p><br /><br /></p><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><p></p></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-3911727230443583578?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-16308180838437937122007-08-18T21:20:00.001+08:002008-11-19T03:58:16.239+08:00<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RsbylxmHaII/AAAAAAAAAAM/XgPET4I5LYE/s1600-h/green-fog.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5100030358825953410" style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_dty42M4PRPI/RsbylxmHaII/AAAAAAAAAAM/XgPET4I5LYE/s320/green-fog.jpg" border="0" /></a> A pic taken from pixelgirl website......<br /><br />when i saw this pic, i felt peaceful n calm... but my temper recently isnt as calm as it suppose to be....<br /><br />i knew i had created alot of nusiance recently because i flared up more often than before and i threw my temper at anyone... i know very well that i had changed...and is a bad change... throwing temper anywhere and anyhow... and i m well aware by it... people gave me the shocking look when they saw the change... i know i know... but i dun wat is the cause... i kept questioning myself but i still cant find the answer... i m lost...<br /><br />tried talking to u abt it but u didnt provide me an answer. instead each time u just say try to keep the temper down... i am also aware of this need but i m trying to ask if u know y i have changed but u didnt even to make an attempt... coz i tot u know my best... well, guess i m wrong...<br /><br />dunno y, felt like writting an entry today... u are busy playing mj after ur ktv... ya i know u invited me along but i just dun wish to go out coz of my face. yet u dun understand... been thinking abt our relationship for the past few days... as u had said ystd, it had changed... it seems like u are way too busy for me... i know u have done many things for me but now is lesser... i m not trying to count in terms of materialistic stuff but i know the care n concern is definitely lesser... maybe because i m the cause of it... didnt u realise both of us did nth for each other this 2nd aniversary? wondering if this is an indication of sth? i wondered...<br /><br />y pple have nice and happy pics on their blogs but i dun??<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-1630818083843793712?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1164359366099557162006-11-24T17:02:00.000+08:002006-11-24T17:09:26.116+08:00was reading a fren's blog...read the poem...some feelings after reading...<br /><br />wat is love?<br />wat is love if one can never find true love afterall?<br />is love just between 2 people?<br />or is love about everyone ard u?<br />or is love just an illusion in ur own mind?<br /><br />have i found or have i not? who can answer me? neither u nor me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-116435936609955716?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1163339763539053172006-11-12T21:28:00.000+08:002006-11-12T22:06:28.090+08:00had a bad day at chomp chomp today...was happily eating with rp after ktv..went chomp chomp to have our dinner... waited so long and finally we got ourselves 2 tables at the benches outside...thought we could enjoy our food but these 2 bimboos stood besides us to wait for us to get off...isnt it obvious that we have just started our dinner? they are just stupid to wait for our tables...so they waited for only about 10 minutes..then this stupid woman took out a cigarette...so wat if this is a smoking area? we non-smokers cant sit down to eat here meh?? i was watching her smoke at the other table...the very moment she blew the smoke towards my rp tables i feel like slapping her. IS this the right way to chase pple out?? so wat if u are a smoker? i knew she was waiting for seats but i refused to let my seat to her.. so i only got off my table when i saw another old lady waiting besides me... i walked over to rp's table and blocked that stupid woman from smoking towards the table of food. we chatted while the food was being served one by one.. eating at chomp chomp u ought to wait for the food la..coz the food takes a long time to arrive wat.. i knew she got irritated waiting but too bad, we HAVE NOT finished our food. no way she can chase us off... she took out yet the second cigarette..and again blew the smoke across us...zip zip tired blocking the smoke but still the smell was too strong... wat kind of attitude is this ?? so wat if u are wearing a tube and smoking? this is not an entitlement for u to get seats lor!!!<br /><br />finally when we got off the table, i cursed her!! dun ask me wat i cursed but believe me, i can make horrible curse!!<br /><br />i wanna say that i m utterly disappointed in the attitude of singaporeans' today... never have i see such rude attitude before...watsmore she is in her thirties...where has all the manners gone to?????????????<br /><br />now i am coughing coz of her stupid smoke...<br /><br />i m not critising all smokers. just that this stupid woman ought to be cursed!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-116333976353905317?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1159244012765452282006-09-26T11:57:00.001+08:002006-09-26T13:20:28.250+08:00hey has been long since i last blog... didnt get use to blogging nowadays...has been busy with archit...well guess i m also nt use to blogging my feelings online...<br /><br />was looking thru my frens blogs...wanna to catch up with them since i have nt been contacting them since the sem starts...feel bad...realise alot of things happen to my frens but i just knew it...feel real bad...<br /><br />saw my frens who are in exchange now...they have been posting nice photos..i kept wondering what will happen to me if i was in their shoes? were i be as happy as them? well, actually i see that i will cry many times there if i m gg exchange alone...haha..coz i m scared of loneliness?haha..well i m afraid i cant adapt to the culture and people there... well, but is really a nice place to travel to...such as australia and texas...<br /><br />back in sch...p1 and tropcial workshop are over..sem starts fast and now is the mid sem break...<br />well, P1 was fun..though i have to work with totally new faces in the studio..didnt know them at all but i was the one who initiated this group..haha and the funniest thing is that their names all have the "jie" in it.. and of coz i m excluded!haiz...well, though sometimes i got irritated by our nonchalant leader who doesnt smile more than twice a day, i still have great fun with them:) definitely i learnt alot from this leader...now i know the difference between a "A" student and a "B" student like me...haha..well, does it matter now? now, results is nt wat i m concern of..like wat gareth says, enjoying what i m doing is more important than forcing me to do things tat i dun enjoy...true though...<br /><br />mid term break means working on projects' time...is tue today, and i have another project meeting later...sian...when can i go out and play? i miss the sun and the great times i had have during the holidays! esp the camp...well, most importantly i enjoyed being with my group qetest v much...but now seems like we arent tat close anymore coz everyone is so busy!! haiz..hopefully many can turn out on 30th sat...:)<br /><br />seeing many nice photos in my frens' blogs...i feel like uploading photos tat i took during the holidays too! ...pardon me for doing so late ...hehe...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-115924401276545228?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1151340051889508732006-06-27T00:35:00.000+08:002006-06-27T00:40:51.906+08:00by right i shld be happily packing my luggage now waiting to leave for china later at 5am .. but i m just not in the mood to do so.. coz i feel like i m dragging myself to go ... wat is the big deal of packing my luggage last minute? wat is the problem of me myself packing luggage myself? is nt as if this is the first time i gg overseas! i really dun understand wat my eldest wants .. all she wants is to gain control over everything when she is back in the house... i dun see the benefits of doing so.. i only know that i m superly angry n i shouted till i have no voice now.. no as if i like shouting back but the reasons she gave is extremely ridculous!<br /><br />after all the shouting i feel like crying coz they dun understand me... but no use... they wont understand... this house to me seems to drift v far from me... i really wish i wasnt in the house now n ever...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-115134005188950873?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1143089153460812972006-03-23T12:30:00.000+08:002006-03-23T12:45:53.476+08:00has been a long while since i last blogged... no time to blog..busy like mad...<br /><br />my 21st bday has passed... 10 days ago... 11 days ago, i had a wonderful party... though i was running abt, i enjoyed seeing my old frens back... together chatting or playing mj... well, then all the photos taking... cool... is also a day where u see how pple has changed over the time... changes take place so fast...<br /><br />21 le... wat can i say? old..adult... freedom? hm... i dun need that...i have freedom long ago ..haha.. can i nt get the key? so that i can still be showered with love and concern?... haiz... i m nt sure myself either...<br /><br />i had alot of presents! 4 bags, one wallet, 2 pouches, watches, accessories and hongbaos! of course, 7 dwarfs and flowers ! haha... dun have to buy bags anymore..:)<br /><br />just after the party ended, i rushed back to pgp to do design...sad rite? sch work is stressing me out...<br /><br />is jer's and er jie's bday today!! happy birthday to both of them! i havent been seeing my 2nd sis long time liao..dunno how is she... hope she is as happy as ever:) jer, 21 le! welcome to the adult world!... so wat is the big deal that we are 21 now? life still goes on and more tough! nv much will change for the 4 of us i guess...:) just hope clare and cand can find their parnters soon too!<br /><br />Now i m in studio blogging while listening to my new mp3 player..creative zen nano plus... ... i m alittle upset... it seems like i have distanced away from the studio and also the studiomates... sometimes i cant help having this feeling tat they dun like me and this is true... i dun expect them to like me but that the gap between us is larger now... sometimes i feel so helpless... competition goes on high, and i dun where i stand... is how scary tat makes me feels insecure... we werent that close frens anymore.... me leading my own life in studio while the rest in a grp... i feel outcased... but i know the reason y... is okie i guess.... i just hope this feeling wouldnt affect my passion and shake me off archit anytime... coz i feel superly unsafe and stressed here.. right here at this seat of mine... tell u sth. i dun have privacy here... pple here has no manners... use my computer without perimission, chatting on msn on my behalf and dunno wat they type, take my lib book without asking as well.... i just dun understand... is nt tat i dun lend them, i will if they ask me for perimssion! ... i scolded but to no avail... y? nt fierce enough? i just dun understand... i hate pple with no manners that is...<br /><br />i just hope everything in archit ends off fast and well for me.... i hate to say but i hate sch...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-114308915346081297?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1137898358615645882006-01-22T10:31:00.000+08:002006-01-22T10:52:38.676+08:00sch has started. now we are into the 3rd week where tutorials will be starting too...<br />i seriously dun like school...i dun like the stress...it hasnt been like this last few sem...i can see the competition and feels that this time round is really competitive... i see the blood gushing through my veins...rushing for submission, getting myself out of bed early in the morning to attend dreadful lectures... headaches come as quickly as it go...as often as i breathe... last few nights headache struck me off the bed early...nevertheless, the pain continued till the morning...<br /><br />give me a break pls... i dun understand wat the tutor wants, i dun understand wat the lectures are, i dun understand how to do the assignments, and i dislike competition...<br />this time round, the design is 12mc...if design grade is A, the cap will be pull up. but if it remains as a B, the cap will go down... so wat shld i do? strike for the highest? or remain as i m now and be contented?<br /><br />i always tot design shld be sth fun and enjoyable...but it nv turns out to be one. i m disappointed.<br />shld i just finished it in 3 years and do sth lower in profession? will i be happier then?<br /><br />my temper these few days are getting horrible... got irritated v easily...sorry if i have hurt u...<br />can the time pass quickly? i dun want to attend design studios anymore.... i dun like the pace the competition the stress ... ... i hate to say but i have to say that i hate sch now...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-113789835861564588?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1136438020595049452006-01-05T12:32:00.000+08:002006-01-05T13:13:40.636+08:00it has been a month since i last blogged...hm...used to blog more often in the past but now i dun coz less sad things happened to me... ...<br /><br />2005 has passed by so quickly..i m nt really ready for 2006...<br />i rem a year ago, rp mates hada new year resolutions for 05...now looking back, realised didnt really fufilled most of them exp one...found the one...<br />05...started off with wannee asking me to join the foc05 oc...i didnt really give a thought of joinin foc then coz i was afraid i will be too busy but i did after much persuations. sch goes on as usual with the hectic schedule n heavy work loads...i rem the design theme was then the triangular plot of land at little india...back then dennis n i went to little india a zillions times for site visits..we had much fun staying overnite in studios n working n chatting through the nites with the old studio 4 mates... then came exams...then results... as usual, i failed to improve my grades... i was utterly disappointed with myself... i finally resigned to my fate that i m just stupid... i cried for 2 days before i embarked my life with csc again...during the semster, i was detached from csc but i was glad that i managed to bridge the bond back during the holidays... the happiest times i ever had was with csc...n tat was the only time i enjoyed myself, i see myself being useful again...the semster had been dark for me... thinking back, i was relieved tat i joined the foc oc...i made many new frens besides with the usual diathesi...although everyday was packed with meetings n trails i wasnt nv tired to miss out any fun, went for trails to help out too. then the camp came along, the hardwork was paid off i must said...coz i truthfully enjoyed myself to the max...i still rem being the red chongsan girl...haha, renhong n i scare michelle to the max...n nt to forget zippy..haha...but well, this is the first time i took up the role as a girl in red chongsan coz i was too afraid to wear the chongsan n be a ghost to scare others when i m scare too! watsmore, we improved the scaryness at my station coz the first one wasnt scary enough so i volunteered to be a ghost...fred! u must thanks me! haha... well, all in all, i made many many new frens... n also many memories were created then...be it happy or sad...<br /><br />things happened so fast that u didnt realised that it had been 6 months... the first time when i was so confused...the first time i felt i was a fool a toy..the 1st time i felt being treasured. those times were sad but i did survived n now i m a happy girl again... i just wanna said memories were always be there...but let it be a happy one n one that we can laugh it off...<br /><br />05...last year had been an eventful year for me i was too tired...i hope 06 will be less eventful but happier with rpmates, with studiomates, with csc frens as well as with dar...<br />6 months ago, i made this choice. 6 months or even 60 years later, i nv regret making this choice... coz i m fortunate to find the one... but have i failed to be a nice girl? sorry tat i have been such a one... ...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-113643802059504945?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1133455775077387992005-12-01T23:24:00.000+08:002005-12-02T00:49:35.173+08:00the call ended... the mattress was wet coz of the tears...<br /><br />i m useless... i made u cried again... i m terribly sorry... ... sorry... ...<br />i know i broke the promise again but as much as i tried nt to, the tears still flow down my cheek... i nv wanted to restrict wat ya wanna do, that is why i m fine with ending the conversation... but at the same time, my heart hurts... ...alot......alot... ... try as i might, the tears won...ur words linger in my mind... do u know the more u tried to explain, the more sad i was?? as i heard those words, i felt more useless and upset... v v upset... .... it is really painful... ...<br />nt until i heard ur tears n felt ur pain, tat i fully understand my words hurt u... n my tears were urs... ... ... sorry, is my fault... ... ... i am a lousy girl...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-113345577507738799?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1132895893930287362005-11-26T05:17:00.000+08:002005-11-25T13:18:13.946+08:00is 1pm now...n i just woke up...i feel like i m a pig... ... have been waking up so late these few days and sleep late at nights... ... the bed in pgp isnt comfortable at all... i kept having numb legs in the mornings and kept tossing in the middle of the nights... what has happened?? m i too tired to sleep well or m i just too stressed to sleep deeply?? i dunno... ...<br /><br />ystd we were studying bu together...mel, dan, yun ,dennis, jx, crystal, grace, yj and me... we were studyin at our own pace while we discuss abt some points occassionally... then i see the problem again... and i cant list it out here... this is irritating... i just have 2 words for myself... "dun care"... n ya, i shldnt bother anymore...no more...i had enough...<br /><br />came back fr facial at 950pm, miss the show... then i decide to read the blog... i felt so sad for him... i cant believe... then i talked to clare abt it... she said it is common... this is scaring... 5 yrs n now is gone... i dunno where the problem lies but i just cant stop feeling sad for him... ... he must have been tough for the past few weeks in coping the situation alone... ya no one can help him beside himself... take care, fren...<br /><br />another prob... ling... i dunno wat to do... is she still the same her or has she changed? i dare not make her angry coz she will be v angry with me... but i dunno wat is the best solution... i m not like shu...she can simply dun care abt ling's nagging but i cant... coz i have always been the middle one but now i guessed i m not anymore... dun pressure me, pls.... i really dunno wat i shld do that day... u dun understand her temper... she will be superly angry with me and i will be scare... ...<br /><br />i m so lazy, so sensitive, so emotional and so timid... ...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-113289589393028736?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1131583029623815222005-11-11T00:36:00.000+08:002005-11-10T08:37:09.636+08:00eyes were swollen...the end result of crying and the serious lack of sleep...<br />crit today...didnt prepare much...sure to present badly because no mood...cant think well either...<br /><br />bloggin now at the engine canteen..woke up too early for crit...crit starts at 9...i was here at 745...<br /><br />looking back at things... things changed indeed...<br />this is the first time i withnessed it right behind my eyes... heartfelt feelings... though i wasnt very close to her, she meant a place in my heart... had been a long while since i last seen her...back then she was happily enjoying the mooncake yuncai brought for her...appreciating every bits of it with the coffee... i remembered helping her adjust the breathing tubes behind her ears because there were friction against her back of her ears... each time i adjust, she will mention a big thank you to me..."thank you huh"... ... ... and pat my hands...<br />i still remember i try to help her packed her usual biscuits into her preicous container in which she always keep her biscuits in..there were always a variety of them...<br /><br />ystd was the last time i see her... she was in great pain...she lied on the bed breathing with great difficulty... it hurts seeing her in such condition at the v moment... i was too taken aback to say or do anything... i merely look at her across the bed...hoping she has less pain every minute... i almost cried out during this period but i say no i cant...<br />the nurse came to feed her medicine...she couldnt swallow it..even the sweet ice cream that she loves dripped over... we tried to wake her up but ... she was too weak to open her eyes...to move her lips... too weak to even move her limbs...the only response i could see was seeing her mouth open widely to take in every bit of the oxygen that she could reach for...her breathing was v v weak... i sat by her side...stroking her arms and palm...they felt so cold... i was scare but didnt thought that far coz i dun wanna acknowledge it... ... ... every stroke on her... ... ...<br /><br />then i was having upsets in my stomach...wanna to vomit but every time i went over to the washroom nth came out...i kept walking to n fro from her bed to the washroom...fearing that i would vomit onto her... the last time i came back from the toilet, i heard the nurse saying her pulse has stopped... i still refused to register anything in mind tat y i didnt cry... i bear for every moment that i can... i saw her last breath, her last struggle, her last movement...she went peacefully... ... ... i held my feelings back strong then... nt until i saw the nurse pulling in the casket... ... i broke down... ... ... ... ... ... ...<br /><br />she was the first elderly i came to visit when i joined touch... she has left an imprint in me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-113158302962381522?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1129982043170662952005-10-22T22:59:00.000+08:002005-10-22T19:54:03.176+08:00just came back fr mum's shop...at jurong...so many pple in the shop but none of them are customers...all her colleague's family members..wat are they doing there?? this is a shop not a house... i m angry to see that my mum's effort doesnt pay off... her parnter is slackin, turning on the aircon n enjoyin watching the tv...wat is this??inside the shop, there are her daughter, her mum, her husband, her sister, her sister's husband n daughter...so many pple go there buy tea n chit chat!! does she knows how much effort my mum has put in?? does she knows she is in the wrong?? i wanna scold her la..but i dunno how to...how to help my mum? i dunno anything abt marketing... hope my second sis can help her monitor... i m lost as to how i can help my mum... i m v worried for her... i dun wanna see her work so hard n in the end lose money...i know is her dream to open a spectacles shop... ... how how??<br /><br />decide to be at home this weekend coz i somehow miss home... but i was sad coz the warmth that i used to have has diluted... when i entered the house on friday, only my grandma n mum at home...mum busy with her work...saw her becomin thinner n thinner... grandma still as strong but can see tat she v happy n glad to see me home.. heard fr my mum that my father has been rotting at home coz he now nth to do... how how??<br /><br />ystd i met my eldest sis..she was v nice..she passed me her new small fridge for my hall..then i brought her into my room...we chatted quite alot on the way home though we headed home different ways... she passed me fifty dollars coz she scare i no money... she has changed so much after marriage..n i m really glad...she is now closer to my parents, my bro n me too..but not with my second sis yet ba...hope they will become closer soon:)<br /><br />wanna have a small chit chat with my mum ystd but she seems busy... told her i got a corn on the leg n i just to see a doc..the only reply i got was why waste money again? how come see doc? leave it alone la... this is v saddening...i was shocked to hear this... it seems like she doesnt care abt me...<br /><br />chatted with my second sis n bro alot today...shared some ideas n commented on some studies matter regarding my bro... didnt know that my bro is attached too until my second sis told me... my bro still quite close to me la...he got alot to tell me but i dun seem to be paying attention leh...how how? i m v bad to him rite?...hope he is coping well with studies and her gf too...<br /><br />does my presence means anything to them? ...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112998204317066295?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1127754071469428942005-09-27T16:51:00.000+08:002005-09-27T01:01:11.476+08:00i dun have the time to be bloggin now by right...but i cant stand it...i m on the verge of !!!<br />so many things to do... so many things that i cant do... is not that i dun wanna help... i really cant find a free time slot out... i m sorry....<br /><br />someone told me before .... u huh dun make her busy...must must help her... haiz... is not i dun wanna help..pls try to understand .... u make me sound like i m the culprit... n i feel bad abt it... i have 2 mid terms...i havent study at all... n help is needed desperately... both in this n that event!!! i m sorry really sorry guys...i really not free...<br /><br />sorry that i had done a bad job..sorry that i didnt appear at the other place... sorry that i didnt even say i got to leave...<br /><br />back at home... sis kept complaining... wedding big thing i know...but there is also a limit to my patient... is nt that i m out to play that i came back late...i was studyin in sch!! pls...pls...pls....argh....household chores...why m i the only one helpin mum?? being the eldest dun give u the excuse to avoid such duties...simple stuffs like ironin...dun tell me u dunno...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112775407146942894?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1127624095166338002005-09-26T03:54:00.000+08:002005-09-25T12:54:55.173+08:00argh..just now wrote a long blog but didnt get to upload! here i m to rewrite...<br /><br />haven been blogging since long...felt rather sad n guilty...<br /><br />clare's blog...the moment he told me abt his stuff i was sad...coz i dun want u to be sad n disappointed again...i didnt know wat to do so i sms jer...we both agreed we shld let u know.... i had a mixed feelings tat day..felt happy for him coz he finally has changed his attitude towards relationship but sad coz he failed to realise yet another good lady besides him...clare, tat day after chatting w u although not for long, i was glad that u are alrite..but i know u still cant let go...take ur time coz time heals everything ya... i m sure there is someone else even better than him just tat is the right time yet to appear ya:) jia you clare:) as for the csc day post, y nt give it a try since u have the capability? n also w the help of so many good helpers ard in csc, i m sure u can do it well!! i will support u!:)<br /><br />jer...wat happened to u? are u alrite? i m always v willing to lent u my listenin ear ya:) pls dun be afraid to tell me... i wanna know how have u all been goin on as well...:) take care jer...<br /><br />cand, have been long since i last chatted w u...i m aware that u are still holdin on...dun be afraid to let go alittle at a time...coz i m sure there is someone else better whom u deserve to have ya:)<br /><br />i m sorry that i havent been meetin u guys up since long...but i still rem our rp's mates!! i m sorry....terribly sorry ...<br /><br />things arent the same as before..coz i dun receive things at first hand but rather thru the blogs... is my fault...but i dunno wat to do...i m lost too...:(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112762409516633800?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1125846903495178332005-09-05T14:17:00.000+08:002005-09-04T23:15:03.500+08:00ever since i have u, i havent been blogging..coz i normally blog only when i m sad..but when i m with u, u make my days..so happy n glad to have u ard me...:)<br /><br />this blog is specially for u..not becoz i m sad but becoz i really wanna say sth to u...:)<br /><br />...to my dearest dar...<br /><br />tat day when u were narrating our story for me, i really think tat we 2 were like characters from some fairytales... u were v frank to me...n so was i...n very interesingly i knew how u feel towards me right from the first impression u have of me...although it started quite long ago...:)<br />just as what u n i have said n agreed, we started fast becoz we shared the same feeling...:)<br />although we are only into the second month of our relationship, we both felt tat we knew each other since ages ago..:) we have already many happy memories during these 2 months n i will always rem the places we went to before...n i know u will rem too!:)...<br /><br />wat i wanna say is tat i m really glad to have u ard me...coz u are my support n my strength...:)<br />i still wanna write my whole life journey together with u...:)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112584690349517833?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1125164761842696212005-08-28T16:49:00.000+08:002005-08-28T01:46:01.853+08:00sorry for not bloggin for so long so have been rather busy with the new start of a new sem ya..so sorry ping...nv update u much ....hehe...now here u are with my most recent updates:)<br /><br />today was the csc 4th mc election day...another long day...<br />as most pple of dread to have such long election , i must say this election makes me feel rather sad, disappointed n lost...a detachement was felt as immediately as the election starts...though i wouldnt be in the 4th mc to help out in csc, i still feel so much to help out csc coz simply to say, i love csc to the core!!!...i know so many great frens here...so many buddies so many precious frenships here!!! i nv want to lose it...<br /><br />during the election, i kept rather quiet exp for ya position in which i asked u 2 qns...i wasnt mean to attack u at all, i just simply wanna u to have a greater picture of the post...hope u are fine...dun be discourage in anyway coz csc has many good reasons for u to stay on n committed to in many other ways ya..:)<br /><br />after hearing so much of their speeches, i was rather sad n down...for i saw the many flaws n unhappiness many have in the activities tat i had helped to orgainse with good intentions in the past year... i see my failure in their speeches... i guess i really didnt do a good job in the 3rd mc...hope the 4th mc will succeed in making these flaws flawless coz they are so much capable than me...coz i was once said i want zai enough...well, although i have stepped down, i will still v much like to help n assist in the 4th mc...jia you jia you csc!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112516476184269621?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1122695263363357072005-07-31T14:46:00.000+08:002005-07-30T11:48:54.570+08:00went to pasir ris today...was accompanying dar home to put down his newly bought laptop...<br /><br />there was a strange feeling felt when the familiar environment came to my eyes... i thought of the stuff which had happened one n a half week ago back here... i saw the roads, the pavement and the trees...i heard the sea, the waves and the sand.. n felt the seabreeze... something held my mind from wandering...the scence where we once stood by the shore...those words tat still linger back in my mind... for a moment, i thought of u... but when dar held my hand, i knew better than anyone that some things are meant for memories only... ...<br /><br />dar accompanied me all the way back to clementi for GAW meeting...everything went on very smoothly after tat....but when i reached home, i saw a white envelope on my table...<br /><br />i knew it was from u...i was surprised to see the amount of effort u had put in...i was indeed touched by it...the story of a liar n a fool... then i realised the wordings fr behind the photo... ... a simple "sorry" was what u have in exchange for an explanation...great i thought...u have just proof to me tat i m indeed a fool... ...<br />thanks for the story anyway... the story ends with us as good frens...<br /><br />having been living on this earth for 20 yrs, this one year in nus is really one of my most difficult times...been through so many ups n downs, seen so much stuffs tat have been happening around me and my frens...i can only say, this is part n parcel of life...it is also part of the package of finding ur happiness as well... if none of these has happened, i will be still as innocent n naive as i was a year ago... now tat i had seen much, as observer as well as participant, i knew where the true of happiness lies... ... it is only after u had suffered n lost much of urself then will u be able to cherish wat u really have now... my rp mates, my dar n all my frens who have nv been untruthful to our frenships tat we had built... ...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112269526336335707?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1122028498580694262005-07-23T09:35:00.000+08:002005-07-22T18:34:58.586+08:00i nv regret knowin u...nv regret helping u cut watermelons, give leaflets in the rain, demo for ur free fall game at sentosa, go sch together, catch movie n have steamboat to recee for ur game without u showin up... till shopping at bugis n tat afternoon at sky garden... i nv had regretted any moments... ...<br /><br />i wasnt lying when i realised part of me doesnt belong to me... i lost this part of me to u but u nv have treasure it... for at least i didnt know if u did... ... ya u were nv sensitive to wat i was feeling all along...i was hurt for as many times as u talked rudely n angrily to me... i kept wondering y u treat me so badly...m i deserve to be one? i was sad whenever u did tat to me...u nv realised i was feeling hurt rite? i know u didnt...i wouldnt be surprise if u said u nv wanna bother to think abt how i feel... i felt scare for i dunno when have i done wrong to make u talk angrily to me...<br />i have been struggling through my emotions...to the point of seeing u so close to some other girls which then i told myself, i m foolish enough to have waited for u...silly enough to pray for ur safetly n happiness at the wishing well... i prayed for u as many times as i walked past the temple... u nv knew too...<br /><br />da pian zi da pian zi... ... i didnt know u noticed me callin u by this... do u know y i call u da pian zi ma?? ... coz u once pian zou wo de xin... ... X*h*, i would v much like to go back to the old times but i hope u realise we cant now...<br /><br />once u let go of the strip, the balloon will fly into the sky... ... unless u try all might to reach for that strip, if not the balloon will nv return...<br /><br />海水已变成了泪水 一半的海洋属于你。。。<br /><br />请你好好的保护我给你的回忆 因为我不会忘记。。。 。。。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112202849858069426?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1121621115234540322005-07-18T16:30:00.000+08:002005-07-18T01:25:15.250+08:00havent been bloggin for long...have been busy going out...also was away in archit camp...<br />many many things have happened...wasnt updated as much but still i know quite abit to leave some comments ya...<br /><br />firstly to jer: congrats!!! i m so shocked tat day when i first saw ur msg! totally shocked! but well, i believe u had made the right choice...clare was ard to help u too...move on with ur happening life!! hahaha!!...all the best ya:)<br /><br />clare n cand: so sorry tat i havent been talkin to u 2...have been busy...so so sorry ya...i will make up for it soon k:) cand, pls take care...dun work too hard k? rem to go home more often... clare, dun slack at home all day! go out k:) dun think too much though:)<br /><br />ping: sch has started for u...work hard n play hard too! just rem to have ur meals regularly k:) u are slim hor! also, u have to move on ya:) dun drag there...no use...:) jia you!<br /><br />this part of the blog is for u...i guess u will be reading...just a matter of time rite?...<br />for L: thanks for everything tat u have done...i m thankful to have a great fren like u... i really enjoyed the friendship we have:) and the many memories tat we had shared...but i hope u will understand tat in most cases, things dont usually happen the way we want it to be... i have already put a stop on the v day at suntec sky garden... i have moved on n had found my happiness... i hope u will move on as quickly and go back to your ownself ya...:)i m very sorry to have created so much troubles for u... i shldnt have n i m v sorry for wat i have already done to u...pls pls forgive me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112162111523454032?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1120324623705861672005-07-03T16:55:00.000+08:002005-07-03T01:21:35.870+08:00realised i havent been blogging for the past few days...coz no in the mood to blog n also alot of stuff cant be blogged out...<br />for the past few days, i have been thinking alot... or shld i say i m also escaping it?<br /><br />last tue: went ecp to shan xin...sat by the breakwater rock for 5 hours just by watching the ocean waves hitting against the rock...after tat went to watch vcd...my fren lent me the winter sonata vcd<br /><br />last wed: went to help out in SDE rag...brought my fren along...they are just weird...y are they so competitive in the rag thingy? y must they keep it to secretively? me just dun understand...well, got a cut off my hand while helping with the wire mesh...not big deed but my fren was rather anixous...<br /><br />last thur: went for pathos first outing! watched war of the worlds....wow! i was scare n sad through out the whole show...so scary ..kept hidding behind my jacket...wanted to cry at some parts but hm... watching it with the wrong pple liao...haha...after tat, went settlers' cafe...had lunch n played games! so fun:)...went for mc meeting in the evening...hm..meeting ended fast:)<br /><br />last fri: meeting with mervyn, zixiang , joy n ziping for csc sports day...i hate myself for being late all the time! i shldnt have this bad habit coz i hate it!! i need to change! meeting with the freshies were rather fun haha...after tat, went to the office with lionel then left to meet jer n clare for ktv... had been a long time since i last met them:) didnt sing many songs...just 4 ba...but did try my fav song...jolin's tian kong...nice song:)<br /><br />today...my fren met me at my void deck n had lunch together before going for touch seniors...the first elderly is as old as my grandma...she speaks hokkien i dont understand at all but i managed to help her buy her medicine with ziping...the rest helped to clean the house...Second elderly is a hainanese! haha realised my dialect rather weak...but he was glad to hear me speak abit :) he has got intestine cancer...is at the final stage..he looks so healthy n strong..but actually he is waiting for the day to come...i cant imagine.....i will be v affected...third elderly is a malay lady...shared alot of stories with us but was in malayu...dont really understand but can see tat she is v sad n emtional..she made alot of herbs n also she helped collect funds for the children home...she is so kind...before we left her house, she helped us read our present..she knows alittle of tarot...she said tat i m kind-hearted n likes to help but will choose who to help...n also i trust pple too easily..she advised me to help those whom i know n that lend money to pple whom i know only too....i got a shock coz i just lent a fren money...faint** dun scare me ya:)<br />well, i will be meeting them 2 weeks later:) thought of making sth for them:)<br /><br />tml: can project at amk at 915am! wow super early! scare i cant wake up! hopefully my fren's sms can wake me up!! haha ...will be working till evening...wow i will be tired after tat for sure<br /><br />i m trapped in the mist of toying n treasuring...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-112032462370586167?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1119846987830303212005-06-28T03:37:00.000+08:002005-06-27T12:36:27.836+08:00suddenly feel like writing on my dreams... coz i just met a fren who shared the same dreams as me...:)<br /><br />i love the sun... catching the sunrise n sunset by the beach with my Mr Right...<br />the sea...standing by the shore, distinguishing the horizon among the mist while the sea waves rushes up to the shore washing against our feet...<br />the sky... enjoying the baby blue sky under the leaves of a tree...trying to figure out wat are the clouds forming...<br />the stars...counting the stars at night while enjoying the ending of a day...<br /><br />i have these fantasies since i was young...i long to have these fantasies turn into reality...but i knew it will nv happen....i have always been reprimanded by my frens to stop all these fantasizing but well, i still cant do so...i m stubborn though:) but when i realised there is actually someone who share the same fantasy with me, i m really v surprised! haha...<br /><br />i m happy with my current life now :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111984698783030321?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1119720862216915962005-06-26T16:35:00.000+08:002005-06-26T01:34:22.220+08:00ystd i was down...but luckily a gd fren of mine made today a wonderful day for me:) thanks alot..<br /><br />early in the morning, we went shuang lin temple to pray...haha first time to pray so early in the morning...but the feeling was great:) i pray for my frens' safetly n happiness at the wishing well..this fren of mine prayed for mine:) oh i m so touched...<br /><br />went to toa payoh central to have lunch then my fren suggestted to go east coast! wow! i really wanna so much to go n be with the ocean! we sat there n chatted v long while enjoying the breeze...really nice n sweet...<br />then we went to visit an elderly in SGH...lixian bought her grapes but in the end, she offered us...we ate more grapes than her la...haha...but was glad to hear that she is fine le...i might be joining this rvp too..touch seniors...will be going for the first visit on 2nd july<br /><br />after tat we went orchard for dinner...before tat we were walkin ard...omg...just merely by walking i can buy 2 pairs of shoes lor...hehe i aimed v long liao lor...then not v exp also ..hehe ...my fren say the shoes nice lor..:)<br /><br />really thanks ya:) i enjoyed myself today....hope everyday will be the same as today!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111972086221691596?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1119418651351774602005-06-22T04:43:00.000+08:002005-06-22T13:37:31.373+08:00wow just woke up after a good deep sleep of 12 hours! finally get to sleep so long in the past 6 days! though my whole body aching, i still have v sweet dreams last night..u wouldnt believe tat i was actually smiling in my dreams lor!!<br /><br />the camp was GREAT! really wonderful! i knew i will nv regret joining the camp! the pre-camp was a day where the whole camp counciliors came together as one big family...everyone helped in making sure tat the admin n logistics stuff are ready for the next 5 days..everyone was so cooperative n helpful...i m really touched coz the teamwork in csc is really strong:)<br /><br />first day of the camp was my prog...internal hunt...abit busy n gan chong but hey , everything went smoothly! i m really v glad to all station ic for their help:) n of course the freshies n kc n akc! the MJ was fun too! haha finally, is my turn to sabo pple!! yeah!! hahaha!!<br /><br />second day was external hunt..our grp was v punctual for all stations haha! though we dun have v loud cheer in the first few days, our grp was v punctual!! yeah!! hahaha...cluedo was fun too!! our grp was v intelligent la!! hahaha got v smart freshies!! solved the puzzles in no time!! yeah!!!<br /><br />third day was mass games n ethelonther idol...hahah the mass games was shiok too! hahaha....the first mass game station was like SDU la..hahaha... my freshies really wonderful! they act out advertisement for the idol...wow! they really a v funny grp of freshies!! well done!!<br /><br />fourth day was sentosa n nightmwalk!! hahah the peak of the camp!!! everyone super high!!!! me too!! though the journey fr station to station was far, we really had great fun!! we even dump our station ic into water!! i must really say my grp v smart! they use mouth to pass the playing card instead of their faces!! we counciliors cant even to that during trials la!! n u know wat, they did it once!! best man!!! n we won the finale!!!! though i was abandoned by them, we stil won the game!!!! THREE CHEERS TO PATHOS!!! hahaha the fright was good!! i act as a red chong san ghost! managed to scare some freshies! one male freshies is more scare than the girl la! faint**<br />i shouted n screamed like mad...no voice till the end...hahaha...but it was fun!!! the makeup was v er xin la!! so red!! then zebra still come n look for me...still tell me tat i look pretty in the chong san! yeks! hahaha..btw, got one cac guy said i look cute! hahaha...ops:)<br /><br />hey, i really have great fun in the camp...with my new grp as well as my old diathesis grp... we diathesis still have a cheer for the camp pple n also we still v onz n close in the camp!!! thanks diathesis!!<br />thanks the oc too! thanks everyone in the camp who have make the camp so memorable n wonderful!! nv have such great fun for long! without the help of any single one member of the counciliors, the camp wouldnt have been so successful!thanks bryan, ziping, sujun, lixian n liangyu!<br /><br />i have seen enough though...have so much emtions during these 5 days of camp...i was high in the day with my freshies, tired late at night n sad before i sleep....<br />i hope everything ends soon..for i m tired to carry on...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111941865135177460?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1118812730704799022005-06-15T04:16:00.000+08:002005-06-15T13:18:50.710+08:00ystd was a tiring day for me ..though i didnt do much but i guess i went to many places ...then didnt really have the appetite to eat anything..just dessert n soups lor...<br /><br />was preparing the frightnight..then stomachache came along....haiz...<br />tat cheongsan i wore was super hot! so er xin...haiz but well, i managed to scare ziping! haha<br />i tot i would have ruin the station lor..coz i cant act ...but for the effect to be good, i volunteered to act as one red female ghost:) after the trial, headache came..gosh..this is bad....rest in the clubroom while waiting for the rest of the pple to come back for debrief...was a super long wait...<br /><br />the ride home ystd seems far... ...<br /><br />camp is coming...tot of bringin my laptop along... but i dun think i have the time to check mails tot haha...think i will be super lack of sleep throughout the camp...i hope everything will turn out smoothly in the camp...i m ready for anything...i m prepared for the worst to come...<br />i dun hide n i dun act... i treat everyone truthfully...:(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111881273070479902?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1118506861779574912005-06-12T15:09:00.000+08:002005-06-12T00:21:01.783+08:00i have always been myself...i have nth to hide...this is the true me...i dun wanna change becoz of anyone...i change for myself's sake... i dun act i dun hide...<br /><br />i heard it today...guessed i have already knew the truth... u have always been like this..so no big deed to u ya...well for me, i m learnin to disgest it down my throat now... dun worry i m still alive...though u dun even care now...<br /><br />i just wish u are happey:)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111850686177957491?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1118252766866948432005-06-09T17:00:00.000+08:002005-06-09T01:46:06.883+08:00hey wat is happenin to me huh? wat's wrong? i really dunno understand myself...getting to hate myself more...<br /><br />it wasnt suppose to be like this at all... it went the wrong direction! save me! pls save me! i dun wanna be trapped in the pit again... i m scare...<br />i m tired too...tired to act non-chalant...haiz.... pls keep me busy...for at least i wouldnt think abt it for a moment...<br /><br />蜻蜓淀水， 你就像只蜻蜓一样， 淀了足够的水后， 就轻飘飘地飞走了， 不留下一点的思恋。。。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111825276686694843?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1117911226591010772005-06-04T17:56:00.000+08:002005-06-05T02:53:46.596+08:00just came back from my second sis's bf house...went there to play mahjong...not too bad, i won $1.60 haha... is a friendly family..:)<br /><br />i signed in onto msn the moment i came back...well, i guess as usual, the same scenario... i m disappointed...<br /><br />read my babes blogs as well as ah ping's...have sth to tell u all...<br /><br />jer: dun be pissed of by ur parents ya..i tot they are funny though:) ...n i wanna tell u that u dun have to worry abt the misunderstanding ya...i not angry... this misunderstanding is passing by for me le... n i nv have excluded anyone of us ya..even for ping...no matter wat, we still the best of frens ya! ping too:)<br /><br />clare: i heard abt the new story of him le...wat i can say is tat guys cant be trusted...i m disappointed in him...nv tot tat he could change his way of thinkin so fast... clare, guys are guys...haiz.. hope u can get over asap...dun forget abt our frens tat we have yet to intro to u ya:) hehe...<br /><br />cand: u are busy ya...over the hall stuffs..but dun overwork yourself kk? u seem to be under alot of pressure lately...stay cool:) n i understand u angry with someone u v close to ya...hm...explain to her ya..she will not do it again coz she will respect u this time rd ya:) stay happy! i dun wanna see u so stressed the next time we meet ya:) jia you!<br /><br />ping: guessed u v angry with cartel ya..with almost nth to serve customers rite? hehe..dun worry ya..is not ur fault...u did ur best le..u have overwork urself le...take care k? u still as blur n as weak haha...so pls watch ur way when chasing for bus hor:) the stitches are painful lor..:) ping, stay strong...u will get over soon...:) jia you too!<br /><br />finally for myself: wat i wanna say abt myself is tat i simply cant take u out of my mind for the time being..so i guess the only way for me to get rid of u is to work out... in fact, being with csc pple i m already w grateful le...coz they are really v nice pple..like rh kh bryan zp dennis liangyu etc.. i dun wanna fall into pits now ...not now not in the future too...my ambition is to be a nun..believe it or not ya... i have given up in guys..truly disappinted with guys...<br /><br />btw i just saw a gay couple at my house void deck before i reached home...faint**<br /><br />dun ever ask me y i m not attached or y nobody woos me..i dunno k? i guess the answer is obvious..haha coz i not sociable n i m a bad girl ya:) haha...<br /><br />n ya i dun like guy who anyhow make frens... esp at suntec!! ... sorry hor, i hate guys to make frens this way...is too low-class... btw, if guys wanna do tat, pls make sure u arent fair n fat n ard 30 yrs of age hor, girls definitely not interested in knowing u... i dun understand y they are still this type of way of knowing pple along the streets de... so not sincere at all... tat day incident scare me to death la...but luckily i gues it will nv happen again to me...great...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111791122659101077?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1117823222584308892005-06-04T17:26:00.000+08:002005-06-04T02:27:02.600+08:00went alexandra hospital in the morning to help out paint the mural....we did the outline n were ahead of the schedule...great i tot... wondering how will it turn out to be at the end with everything beautifully painted... tot of going back help out on more days but then i m quite taken back by the pple who are going to help out too..coz i scare they ask me abt results again... i lost...<br /><br />went home..tot of going for a jog but then the moment i lied onto the bed, i fell asleep..sorry clare....tot of meetin clare shop de but then i was in lalaland..:( woke up just in time to go sch for nightwalk trial..<br /><br />hm...no appetite for dinner...drank mango juice...<br />started preparing for my station..with renhong n juncai...<br />my station can be quite creepy coz of the items we placed... offerings la...joss sticks la...lanterns la...scary...luckily i was with renhong lor..someone i close to..if not , i will either be scare to death in silence or i will scream till my last breath ends... so tiring hidding under the table...still have to throw slippers at clare n her parnter la...bypass my station without getting the clue...<br /><br />went home on train..is a long way home...but luckily renhong pei me ...coz actually he wanted to take the other route home but joo chuan kept askin him to pei me take this route home...chatted with him alot... though got him to pei me, i still sad n moody...haiz long story....<br /><br />fish lost among the coral ... ...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111782322258430889?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1117554720173730052005-06-02T14:55:00.000+08:002005-05-31T23:52:00.176+08:00omg! i cant believe wat u say...no is not ME!! i really didnt!! is not me...is not me!!!<br />u made me cry liao la...<br /><br />went for mass trial today...tired...got dragged out of bed...went there realised oc dun really need to be involved coz enough pple liao...haiz ...nvm la ..went there to slim down...did some 500 skipping...not bad...coz it has been long since i last skipped...played frisbee as well...sweat under the hot sun...hm...great i tot..coz can tan more..haha luckily i wasnt burn n not peeling...<br /><br />after trial, clare renhong n i went shopping at bishan j8...bought stuffs tat i really wanna buy long ago...bought a fila cap! is nice! i like it v much...gotta wear during sentosa trial haha....bought a pair of slippers coz the recent one abit spoilt...bought a white skirt...is sweet ..not too bad...quite nice haha....then lastly bought a peach coloured dress...wow is 70%! at first was $50 now only $12! haha...can wear to my sis wedding dinner....abit mature looking but ya is a sweet dress...<br /><br />came back to settle the work thingy...haiz...cant confirm anything also...still have to wait for the person in charge to finish dating first..haha... then after called my fren to chat...argh! realised he v bu yao lian! haha u know who u are huh...haha..but well, is a nice chat although i feel like giving u a tight slap after tat!!<br /><br />sleepin soon, whole body arching...esp my shoulders...pain pain..*sobsob...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111755472017373005?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1117383747066712782005-05-30T15:20:00.000+08:002005-05-30T00:22:27.076+08:00hm...went working for 2 afternoons...haha giving flyers at suntec...wow..tiring job haha..but i guessed i slack quite alot huh...considering tat i gave quite a huge stack to my frens who happened to walk past me haha...hm...but still hor i did my part huh...i did give out the last 2000 fatefully! hehe... this L hor...bio girls while giving flyers la...so obvious! haha... dun fake fake k ...i saw u bioing lor haha:) hey have a great time in ur reservist! haha...<br /><br />hm...saw him...i m glad tat i feel nth liao...really nth liao... i guessed i have passed tat stage of life le...great! history will nv repeat...but e lesson tat i have learnt during this period will always be at the back of my mind...<br /><br />i m so glad tat this holiday now... i haven been myself ever since sem 2 started... having been pressurzied by all the archit stuffs n matters, i couldnt even breathe... now i can concentrate fully on csc n on improving myself.... realised i have been a mountain tortoise for quite long..haha...need to read up more...listen to more songs...update myself on current stuffs too! haha<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111738374706671278?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1117016537272403132005-05-26T09:30:00.000+08:002005-05-28T22:49:46.603+08:00changed the blog template..changed the address too...have been changing coz no choice... forced to change...<br /><br />just came back fr sch...supposed to have archit camp meeting but then only me n lingfong were there...so in the end, i collect the portfoilo n came home...some of them dun have to collect coz theirs are needed for RE-BAR exhibition..RE-BAR is some Brisitsh architects comin over to singapore to view our work... n i m not selected again...carried my heavy portfoilo to n fro like an idiot...put in all my work but nth was appreciated..i felt dumb super dumb...saw Erwin jus now, greeted him but he dun even care...confirmed he is a gay..talked to junxian only...see? the world is evil...guys turned into gays, n showed favourtism so obviously...wat is the world changing into? i dun understand...<br /><br />i feel sad...n down...whenever i came past the studio, i feel depressed...all my hard work put in this past yr was redundant n useless...i feel lousy n lousier each time i walked past the studio...supposed to be a happy place for me...but i guessed it now turns out to be the saddest place that i would have... every time when i think abt this, i wanna cry...but i cant...no place for me to even cry out loud...not at home...not anywhere else ...the only place is in my heart...i will go mad soon...<br /><br />ystd went sentosa for game trial..no clare, no kh...rh busy reading newspaper n doing his logistic stuffs, so i was all alone...though wan nee was there, she also has her own clique... i dun mind being alone with csc members coz they are all friendly n nice pple...only with them i can be happy n feel that i m myself...<br /><br />the day before ystd...<br />wanted to blog but angry with someone...<br /><br />went interview with rotijohn then after tat he brought me to see his so-called shuai ge fren... then went to meet up cand n jer n ping for dinner then after that ktv...thoughout the whole outing, i already tried v hard to strive a conversation v him but then still cannot continue a long conversation...he more enthu in talkin to cand abt the trip coz more things to talk abt n also it happened v recently only...after the whole day i feel so tired....not becoz of the walkin or anything but becoz of the tryin to talk to him...tired n empty heart...<br /><br />is a long blog coz these fews days i havent been blogging...also too tired n sad to blog...<br />well, hope clare can come back soon...so tat i can go csc with her...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111701653727240313?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1116701456203991852005-05-22T17:50:00.000+08:002005-05-22T02:50:56.206+08:00i m abit lost now...<br /><br />went silso beach with womba frens, havent been seeing them since long..haha..everything changed...from appearance to status wise...most of them are attached...others remained the same... as for me n jer... we belong to the remained the same grp...<br />feel happy for those who have found their ones...but dun lose urself in a relationship, dun be frickly minded n unstable... dun mistrust ur loved one...n dun take advantage...<br /><br />i played vb, captain's ball, monkey by the beach...is was great fun...get to sweat alot..good coz can slim down....but at the expense of getting tired n blue black everywhere... i played with zero stress...great! i was myself today... i dun care abt image...i m who i m ....:)<br /><br />came online...tok to cand n rotijohn...roti john came to talk to me first...he was shocked to realised the qiaoness... kept askin me y y y ...<br /><br />well... he talks more to me than in the past...more causally too...<br />great i tot....unless we are still quite good frens...:)<br />saw his photos...haha v cute n funny..didnt he can play play too...<br />but y is it tat he always seem so stern when with us?...maybe he isnt v close to us yet...<br />slowly ba...<br /><br />the feeling of recallin the past is saddening.... but nth can stop it i guess...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111670145620399185?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1116437926682426512005-05-19T16:40:00.000+08:002005-05-19T01:38:46.686+08:00finally exams over...then came portfoilo submission...i hate it! i really dun like this submission thingy... is adding stress to me... but nvm...i m fine now...<br /><br />finally studies are over... i dun have to give myself stress for the time being till 2nd june i guess...<br />now i just wanna do my part as the organising committee in csc foc n also in the trials to come...<br />i want to do my v best in this camp...coz it needs everyone cooperation n responsiblities to make this camp a great success n i hope i can help contribute it too! coz last yr camp was great n wonderful! it was the best camp! n i make true friends there...<br /><br />now i m free...feel great after being trapped into archit for a full whole semster...<br />i couldnt breathe then ..but now i can smell the sweet scent of flowers...<br />i couldnt stop thinking abt design then..but now i can even think of programmes for the camp<br />i couldnt help making myself feel stressed abt archit then...but now i cbb it coz i know for as long as i m in archit i will still hold on to my principles...<br /><br />met new pple in the chalet... played games thru the nights...<br />had fun at the trial ystd...glad that my programmes went smoothly...<br />i had packed my room... much neater now...<br /><br />everything went so smoothly...though i m abit tired after everyday's event, i still feel happy n free... i m not longer trapped in the world...the world where i have to think alot...abt studies..abt frens n abt relationships... now i m a bird that can fly freely in the air...a fish that can swim freely in the water...<br /><br />to frens who are still trapped in the love life... give urself some time to play wild..i mean enjoy doing things that u like n occupy urself for the day...coz this way will make ur day passes by faster...n u will not think abt that party tat often ya:) jia you! get to know more pple such tat ur mind is drawn away with some other pple's stuffs too:).... dun get me wrong..i didnt do it this way...but the first one worked well for me!<br /><br />i was shocked last night when i got online...coz dunno how cum got 2 pple added me into their msn suddenly... then after intro then i realised they were the camp counciliors of some other grps... well, hm... i may be friendly but ya i m not those who likes pple easily... so i hope i dun give them the wrong idea rite fr the start ya... i have had enough troubles with guys le...so pls pls dun let history repeats...i will drown myself with my own tears if it happens again...<br /><br />to a fren whom i have not been replying...sorry ya..(i know he wouldnt get to read this but...need to let out somewhere) i dunno wat to say to u but i m v frightened by u...so i have no choice but to do this to u... this will do u good in the long run ya...pls forgive me ...n do believe me tat u have found the wrong girl...i m not good for u....dun waste ur time on me... sorry sorry...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111643792668242651?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1116434588366526842005-05-19T00:43:00.000+08:002005-05-19T00:43:08.366+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/DSCN1626.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/DSCN1626.jpg'></a><br />me standing on a moddy log !!&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111643458836652684?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1116434508807200492005-05-19T00:41:00.000+08:002005-05-19T00:41:48.810+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/DSCN1630.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/DSCN1630.jpg'></a><br />having dinner at redang&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111643450880720049?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1116433033697287012005-05-19T00:17:00.000+08:002005-05-19T00:17:13.700+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/DSCN14831.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/DSCN14831.jpg'></a><br />3 chio gals!&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111643303369728701?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1115829350697368792005-05-12T15:35:00.000+08:002005-05-12T00:35:50.746+08:00hey i m back... so so tired after the trip...cant even rest today...went to sch to clean up the room n attended a long councilior briefing... wow..super tired n sick... but the day was fruitfully spent ya:)<br /><br />went to redang from sat night till tue night...<br />wow shiok! went snorkelling for 3 times!!<br />havent been so close to the ocean water before...<br />this time round i really feel that i m with the marine life...<br /><br />i swam with fishes...had fun fanning the clams...observed the corals...<br />discovered the depth of the ocean n the marine life under the cliff<br />learnt the different colours of the ocean surface and how salty is the South China Sea<br />fed fishes with bread n watched them snatched among themselves so near to my skin...<br />had my first kayaking ... enjoyed the beach volleyball ...tanned myself more...<br /><br />well...all in all..is fun n relaxing!<br />away with all the city noise n worries n troubles...<br />have fun together with my archit frens...<br />never have i really relax myself ever since i enter uni...<br />had been so troubled with studies frens relationships n more...<br />had drained myself for the past one year...is time for me to rejuvenate myself to the max!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111582935069736879?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1114882275614737222005-05-01T16:27:00.000+08:002005-05-01T01:36:11.843+08:00it has been so long since i lasted chatted with u...<br />i was waiting for ur sms..but to my surprise u called...<br />the familiar house number....the familiar voice...<br />i admit i sort of miss your voices...<br /><br />initially was just to ask u abt some impt stuffs...<br />but u couldnt help much so we chatted along...<br /><br />abt the friends we knew, their pasts n presents stage of life...<br />their the other halfs...n their future walk of life...<br />ur gf , ur results, ur volin ur singing...<br />ur hainanese, ur grandma, ur army-soon-to-be life...<br />my life, my exam n my csc...<br />ur ambitions n aims...<br />my goals n future prospects<br />ur eagerness to enjoy life now<br />my anxiousness to lose weight now...<br /><br />we chatted abt everything n anything...<br />just one thing, we didnt chat abt my current status<br />great i tot...<br />u requested me to teach u more hainanese sentences, i was touched...<br />past memories flew by...<br />but i dare not give it any thoughts...<br />i let it pass by quickly...<br /><br />is so sweet tat u rem the stuffs we did before...<br />is even sweeter when u can rem wat i said to u before...<br />my heart melts...<br /><br />ur voice seems so near for a moment...<br />i tot i could hear u breathe...<br /><br />i guess u never realised this sudden chat took a full 2 hours...<br />u wished me a good nights at the end..i wanted to but i dunno how to put across...<br /><br />all the best to u...may u be happy n fine in ur army days...<br />wishing u all the best with her...<br /><br />farewell fren...my forever fren...:)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111488227561473722?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1114713253059561172005-04-29T17:22:00.000+08:002005-04-29T02:34:13.060+08:00having been thru so much growing up n maturing, i still cant give up the unrealistic side of me...<br />i still like to view things perfectly...love to dream about the impossibles...<br />say i m stubborn, say i m an escapist...<br />i dun mind coz i agreed...<br /><br />but i see no wrong in dreaming? since it takes me through a world with no devil, no crys of pain, no chance of doubts between pple, no fighting over fame or love, no fake no false...<br />all are true...then why not let me stay in my dreamland?<br />for at least i know i wun be bluffed n harmed in it...<br /><br />i have had enough of lies, untruth facts, fallacious stories n fakey bondings with friends<br />all i want is a true world...<br />now i m scared by how others see me because i have been warned many times to put guards when making frens...<br />all along i tot frens are true to u ..no matter how close these frens were to me<br />but in reality, it doesnt always happen<br />was i wrong all the while?<br /><br />i see myself playin with the kids happily at the front porch<br />i see myself taking a stroll along the beach<br />i see myself enjoying the night breeze by the soothing waves<br />i see myself eating grapes while watching drama series<br />i see myself playing volleyball n cycling along east coast park<br />i see myself enjoying being myself in my dreamy land...<br />can i let myself go? so tat i can sore to my dreamland up there?<br />i have refused to unlock myself...<br />maybe is time for me to unlock ...<br /><br /><em> 'before i fall in love' by coco lee</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111471325305956117?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1114607341261485972005-04-28T12:01:00.000+08:002005-04-27T21:09:01.263+08:00got scolded for being sentimental in my blog... but hm... this is in me..ya cant change leh coz i v stubborn girl...<br /><br />was listenin to "heaven knows by rick price"<br />nice song which describes much of my feelings...<br />just make me wanna cry whenever i listen to it...dunno how will u all feel ya?<br /><br /><em>She's always on my mind </em><br /><em>From the time I wake up </em><br /><em>Till I close my eyes </em><br /><em>She's everywhere I go </em><br /><em>She's all I know<br />And though she's so far away </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>It just keeps getting stronger everyday </em><br /><em>And even now she's gone </em><br /><em>I'm still holding on<br />So tell me where do I start </em><br /><em>'Cause it's breakin' my heart </em><br /><em>Don't wanna let her go<br /></em><br /><em>Maybe my love will come back someday </em><br /><em>Only heaven knows </em><br /><em>And maybe our hearts will find a way </em><br /><em>But only heaven knows </em><br /><em>And all I can do is hope and pray </em><br /><em>'Cause heaven knows<br /></em><br /><em>My friends keep telling me </em><br /><em>That if you really love her </em><br /><em>You've gotta set her free </em><br /><em>And if she returns in time I'll know she's mine<br />But tell me where do I start </em><br /><em>'Cause it's breakin' my heart </em><br /><em>Don't wanna let her go<br /></em><br /><em>Maybe my love will come back someday </em><br /><em>Only heaven knows </em><br /><em>And maybe our hearts will find a way </em><br /><em>But only heaven knows </em><br /><em>And all I can do is hope and pray<br />'Cause heaven knows </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>Why I live in despair </em><br /><em>'Cause wide awake or dreamin' I know she's never there </em><br /><em>And all the time I act so brave </em><br /><em>I'm shakin' inside </em><br /><em>Why does it hurt me so<br /></em><br /><em>Maybe my love will come back someday </em><br /><em>Only heaven knows And maybe our hearts will find a way </em><br /><em>But only heaven knows </em><br /><em>And all I can do is hope and pray </em><br /><em>'Cause heaven knows<br />Heaven knows heaven knows </em><br /><br />does heaven knows wat i m thinking of?....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111460734126148597?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1114142788410024412005-04-23T03:02:00.000+08:002005-04-22T12:06:28.410+08:00is time to buck up...<br /><br />hey i know where i stand among all... i m among the bottom few or m i the last?<br />u dun like lousy pple rite?<br />i know le...<br />i dun have to work hard for u, i work hard for myself...<br />i m stressed seriously stressed up by all the unnecessary pressure i put on myself...<br />but that was what i intepret from u...<br />ya i shldnt put these stresses on me....coz u are not longer in my fairytale<br />u said it urself...<br /><br />there are many things that i wanna do after exams...i cant wait for the exams to be over...<br />things to be accomplished:<br />1- play volleyball -anywhere also can as long as is volleyball!<br />2- sing ktv<br />3-catch movies<br />4- suntanning at sentosa<br />5-buy skirts n shoes<br />6-tidy up my home room so that i have my space for my models<br />7-wanna go taiwan!<br />8-wanna earn $ - prepare for yr2 expenses!<br />9-learn driving - i wanna be a super independent lady!<br />10-learn yoga, diving, tennis n dance??<br />11-cant wait for my precamp to start! coz can play games!<br />12-wanna forget u n get on with my life!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111414278841002441?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1113750530506662662005-04-18T14:04:00.000+08:002005-04-17T23:10:55.933+08:00the day started out late and feeling miserable right from the moment i opened my eyes<br />i knew this will happen...i knew it long ago...but i refused to accept the fact because i hope it will be different ...i tot u will make an effort to bring me a surprise...but u didnt bother to...<br />now and again, u disappoint me...<br />i have nth to say and nth tat i can do as well...<br />everything that i wanted to do and say is being controlled...<br />i cant even have the rights to feel wat i m truly feeling now...<br />i cant write in my blog as well...<br /><br />realised that i cant even write out my fairytale on my blog because i cant do so...<br />i dont have a place to fantasize... i cant do so because i cant be this selfish...<br /><br /><em><span style="color:#ffff99;">fishes in the ocean are crying but can u tell which are the tears and which are the ocean water?</span></em><br /><br />i speak of fishes for which they cant see wat lies beyond that oceanline ...just like me...<br />i cant see what holds for me in the future...<br /><br />trapped forever in the room that u had threw me to... the lock will nv br unlocked for which u had thrown the keys into the deepest ocean ever found...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111375053050666266?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1113557482052508352005-04-16T08:44:00.000+08:002005-04-15T17:31:22.053+08:00crit is over. sem is over soon. a long 3 mths is coming soon. is during this time of the sem that i feel lost again... i am so used to having my archit frens with me...thru the days n thru the nights workin in the studio... now design is over...even our studio is gone...where do we meet as often again? in mac? or online? well, hope we wouldnt lose this frenships! take care fellow studiomates! i hope we will still remain in contact forever n ever...even when we are super busy... our outings are still onz! missing all!<br /><br />i dun understand why m i reacting this way...sth wrong with me... seriously, i need to widen my social circle... if not i will be trap in my fairytales again... i hate myself for being such an idiot...to be living in my fairytale world again... i cant wait to meet new pple..not because i wanna know more guys or get attached but is that i need to know new pple learn new stuffs so tat i can forget the past and put everything behind me... i needed so much to move on... i need to be busy to move on... i need to...<br />my camp recuitment started... i recuited some freshies... not too bad haha...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111355748205250835?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1113080474299420422005-04-10T20:51:00.000+08:002005-04-10T05:01:14.300+08:00taking a small break before i continue rendering my panels... super tired now...<br /><br />past few days have been terrible for me... have been stayin in studio dunno since when to when...dun even know when the sun rises and when it sets...<br />all i know is that the air in the studio is super unhealthy n dirty...my face is getting from bad to worse... also my arms and back are aching again... have been in the same position for hours...<br /><br />i dunno wat i m feeling now coz i have became numb... really dun understand y i m doing all this also....<br /><br />i dunno wat is the life outside SDE level 1 studio... not even activities in my hall n my home... all days n nights, life revolves around the studio and the vending machine...<br /><br />i dunno how to calculate simple calculations le... dun even know wat is the latest news recently , dun mention the popular drama series telecast on the channels...<br /><br />i only know the taste of mac fries, mac ice milo n mac plain foldover, fong seng egg onion n plain prata, n the nasi lemak rice... i dunno how soup tastes like anymore....<br /><br />sorry if i have been neglecting u all...i will make it up after mon ya?<br />pls be happy while i m not ard...:) tc!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111308047429942042?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1112880908486957982005-04-08T12:34:00.000+08:002005-04-07T22:58:45.020+08:00havent been blogging for the past few days coz have been staying overnight in studio to do my model.... i took so long to do my model..wanting it so much to be the best model that i have done so far..but apparently it always doesnt turn out like tat... :( ..my pillars arent straight at all! my glass panels have been stained!...sad sad ..super sad:(<br /><br />realised many things can happen just within one night...friendship? sch work? health? n sth else?<br />sch work: as usual..rushing for submission again... nth special or stunting... is always like this for me...dun wanna stress myself also...<br />friendship: realised the older we get, the more weird and complicated relationship between friends can get; nv ever trust anyone totally<br />health: ate too much supper n irregular meals!!..haiz...wasting hall meals as well:( n many titbits!getting fatter n fatter!<br />n sth else: well, dun guess wat are my feelings now...nobody can guess it out..dun think that u know wat i m thinking of just because u think u know me v well...<br /><br />Realization point - to love a person one needs to sarcifice so much but the one being loved is just being blunt abt it and the worst is to make use of it..is it v saddening? dun go overboard in any case, u might not be able to pay it back in time<br /><br /><br />ps... short blogs nowadays due to lack of time n the usage of a journal..:P<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111288090848695798?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1112376195239374782005-04-02T17:22:00.000+08:002005-04-02T01:25:22.706+08:00just finished writing my sad feelings in my new diary... felt a little lighter as compared to the heavy n moody me in the afternoon ...<br />slept from 2 to 8 in the afternoon..felt guilty...<br />i was too tired n sad in the whole afternoon...so i chose to sleep thru the sad period and not think abt the sad stuff... this time round i know y i m sad... i know where the reason lies...<br /><br />have been in uni for almost a year liao...i have made many new frens...they are really v nice to me...even for fren that i had just know..ZL sent me home twice in the late nights le although the route to his home wasnt along the way to mine...felt really glad to have such nice frens around... i m surprised to have such great honour to have these good frens ard me ... i tot i have been an irritating pig to them... n i have been neglecting them ... thanks alot...i m really thankful to all :)<br /><br />but well, i shld be happier because my family have been treating v nice too..mum prepared bird nest, sis helped me to clear my past debts, grandma prepared a heavy breakfast for me today... but y m i still so down n solemn?<br />why is it that pple are out having fun but i m still trap in sch n thinkin thru abt some sad stuffs?<br /><br />" i m suffering in ur enjoyment "<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111237619523937478?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1112300455631323282005-04-01T20:32:00.000+08:002005-04-02T01:25:06.233+08:00i m always like tat...<br />i guessed i m mad le..dun understand myself at all<br />dunno y i feel so down ...<br /><br />btw, my design is getting from bad to worse...really no mood to do anything to improve it...<br />only one week left to go but i have nth done yet<br />millions of useless meetings, disturbing sms, irritating emails, and lots of projects, presentations and tutorials...<br />all at one getting me onto nerves...<br />making me seriously lack of sleep...<br /><br />i tot nth else beside all these could have bothered me..<br />but i guessed i m wrong again...<br />haiz....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111230045563132328?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1111524099534007102005-03-24T08:41:00.000+08:002005-03-23T04:41:39.536+08:00suppose to be a happy blog today becoz i went back TPY to give Jer a bday surprise...Jer happy bday!...hope we really did give u a BIG surprise:)<br /><br />but well, all these happy emotions had been replaced by great anger!<br /><br />i just cannot imagine u used the 3 words to scold me..n scolded behind me...n to someone else abt me!!<br />FINE! to think that i treat this friendship so pure n nice, with no illintentions or wat at all..as fairly treated as i could..u treated this friendship differently.. u used WAT THE FUCK ON ME! u jollywell know tat i dun like vuglar words n you used such a NICE ONE on me...use it in front of me n not behind me!... i m SO SO DISAPPOINTED IN U! i nv expect u to use such vuglarity on me, nv expect u to scold me by complaining it to someone else...if i didn get to know today, i guess i will really be the stupidest pig ever alive in the world.. to think that i really treat u as my close fren, u did this to me... i felt more disappointed than angry...i dunno wat n who u are angry at, i tot was just askin u to do me a favour but i guessed this little favour took u great pains n precious time, so sorry tat i was blunt in knowing so...dun worry, i wouldnt trouble u anymore!<br /><br />sudddenly recall wat my sis once told me...she told me that friends cant be trusted..even the closest ones...human are bad n evil n are decieving people in nature..not a single one fren can be trusted...i pushed this concept v strongly away many years back then...coz i tot every single frenship that i have is true n pure in nature... but she told me that human are greedy n bad...even ourselves we are...she said my thinking was too innocent n naive...n that i have to change this preception soon before pple ard me made used of me...<br />i nv believe this till now.... although i met with this incident not only once le, i still choose to think that all human are good in nature...no one frenship bonded is for ill intentions....just that this particular incident made me realised how naive n easily taken i m even when i had turned 20...<br /><br />by all means, i gave up le...i dun wanna know who n who is not true n faithfully in the frenships shared with me... i have no energy to think who n who is planning to make use of me....i m tired to think n i dun wish to know...i still prefer to perceive the world as gorgerous as a whole...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111152409953400710?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1111410625508105742005-03-22T01:01:00.001+08:002005-03-22T04:07:17.616+08:00went to sentosa on sat to suntan myself...with G n D<br />now i m in pain...red n burnt... shoulders n back hurt the most...cant carry bag properly...<br />need to apply moisturzier but hands too short..cant reach my back...haizz..<br />well, at least now i look healtier...no longer the fair pale me...good:)<br /><br />for 2 studio sessions, i have been waiting for nth...warren no time to crit us so have to go to darlene's house tml...haiz...built 3 models..dunno which to choose fr...hope darlene can help me out...<br />time running short for design...less than 3 weeks to do everything out...<br />need to start on my panels soon!<br /><br />dunno why there is a sudden emptiness whenever i m alone in my room these few days... hm...not a good feeling to have...wondering why...issit becoz of my design? or my studies? or just me? well, i m too tired to figure which one... haha anyway i cant be bother le... lazy to find out as well...<br />could it be i have done sth wrongly?<br />could it be i have not yet done sth?<br />good questions but no answer<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111141062550810574?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1111087810042462902005-03-18T19:30:00.000+08:002005-03-18T03:30:10.043+08:00went ktv today... think we are mad pple..haha...just go whenever we feel like singing<br />but well as usual, all our voices cannot make it coz all too tired le....<br />dun understand how we can stand singing till 2 la when we didnt even have sufficient sleep the night before...haha<br /><br />had a good chat with a fren on one of days this week...<br />realised that the changes are far taking place too fast le... nv realised its speed ever before<br />is happening at such an alarming rate that i felt sad for our futures...<br />dun understand y this happen in the first place but well, amazingly i still acknowledged this fact n had accepted it...<br />well, i guessed there is no one to put blame on ...is the society itself that causes this change...<br />n so only the society can help to salvage this current situation n prevent more such changes fr happening....<br />i felt so helpless...but there is really nth that we can do now...<br />wonder wat are the impacts it will have in the near future to come...<br /><br />if only this change can be undone...:(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111108781004246290?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1110731544260373322005-03-14T15:59:00.000+08:002005-03-14T00:32:24.263+08:0013th march...the first day into my young adult world...i m 20 le...<br /><br />sat mornin went for csc, open house in the afternoon, then went to meet my 3 lovely buddies for dinner...<br />they treat me to western food, bought me perfume (thanks! i like it alot! coz i have been eyeing for nice perfume but just cant find suitable one) n even wrote sth for me...all done up nicely in A2 sweet pink paper...i displayed it my room..hehhee<br />my god bro got me a necklace with my name encraved onto it...haha is jer chose one...<br />then went istana park n had a surprise there!..renhong, shundeng n my godbro turned up with cake n big heavy presents! haha...took many photos there too!<br />after that, went ktv n khoon hong turned up too!<br />A MILLIONS THANKS to clare, cand, jer, bro, kh, rh n sd!! i dunno how to show my greatest appreciation to all...i can only say thanks n thanks a million times over! i really appreciate the effort in plannin this surprise for me..i know how difficult the plannin is...so sorry tat changes have to be made along the way...<br />is really great n wonderful to know u all as my frens!Huggez to all!:)<br /><br />went to meet singling n shuhui n her bf today for dinner..treat me to crystal jade n bought me a cheese cake too...haha super full today! i have put on weight for this bday! haha ...need to slim down!..thanks alot!!<br /><br />i know my mum would like me to be at home today becoz she would like to buy me a cake as well, but i m so sorry tat i cant go home...becoz i have to do my design...so sorry... i have been neglecting my family members...but i already tried my best to sqeeze out time to go home le...hope they can understand...<br /><br />a 20 lihui...<br />nth much would change<br />still the same...<br />ugly, low self-esteem, timid n silly<br /><br />so much things had happened for the past few weeks...<br />had been thru heartbreaking times n cold n lonely days...<br />i thought i had grown more mature this time round...<br />but after so much time given n the effort that i have been trying to put in, it failed...<br />to think that i actually...<br />i reprimanded myself...<br /><br />a 20 lihui...<br />must learn to look ahead positively<br />work hard for my studies<br />care more for my family<br />able to spend more time in helping the lovely children<br />to do my part well as frens, good frens n best frens<br />to give more to others<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111073154426037332?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1110731805407987132005-03-14T00:36:00.000+08:002005-03-14T00:36:45.406+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/Pict0087.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/Pict0087.jpg'></a><br />my lovely buddies!&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-111073180540798713?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1109779391824724122005-03-03T16:05:00.000+08:002005-03-03T00:03:11.826+08:00this shall be my last blog on this issue le...<br /><br />dragged to see doc today..seriously dun like seeing doc...<br />hate to be reminded of the past...hate the ECG test again<br />i think i got phobia with doctor<br /><br />STRESS was the word i told doc<br />the only word that cross my mind to bluff him<br />n it works! haha...<br /><br />u said u know that is not easy for me to act normal<br />u said that u understand<br />i tell u sth<br />u dun understand coz u nv know wat i have to go thru<br />is not only u<br />there is more than wat the eye meets<br />i m tired le...seriously tired le...<br /><br />i understand how u feel<br />i understand wat u have to go thru<br />n i thought i ought to give u a chance to explain<br /><br />anyway, i m really fine now...at least i m on the starting point ya<br />so to all my dear frens out there who have been reading my blog n had showered ur care n concern<br />i m really very thankfully to all :)<br />is very sweet to know that there is always frens whom will care for u even when we are miles apart ya<br />thanks a million to all..:)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110977939182472412?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1109607291069841542005-03-01T16:15:00.000+08:002005-03-01T00:17:20.746+08:00i know u will be readin my blog<br />so here i m to tell u wat i m going to do<br /><br />i m truly shocked<br />i thought i have myself prepared to take the blow<br />but i wasnt in fact<br />i dunno how many lies u have been lying to me<br />i dunno whichever part of ur speech is true or fake<br />i thought i was sincere in our friendship but i guessed u wasnt<br />i m so disappointed in u..in ur lies<br /><br />i dunno wat u are going to do right now<br />all i know is that i m going to be a happy me<br />just as what MR C said to me, ignore this jerk<br />u made me used vulgar words on my frens<br />i m sorry to my frens<br /><br />mel said i was stronger than this<br />so here i m<br />everyone i m fine!<br />i have no one in mind now so u dun have to worry<br /><br />nevertheless, i still regard u as my fren<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110960729106984154?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1109495746201045982005-02-28T09:30:00.000+08:002005-02-27T17:25:05.776+08:00went past the temple today<br />too many people praying for their loved ones<br />i cant go in to pray for u<br />but i wish for ur happiness at the wishing well<br />i wished that u are happy and fine and are getting on with life as usual<br />the second coin went straight into the wishing well<br />i felt happy... ...<br /><br />this is the only thing that i can do for you<br />n i know u wouldnt know that i will do it for you<br /><br />dun worry i m getting on with my life as well... ...<br />though i have to force myself to eat<br />though i still have chest pains days n nights<br />though i still have breathing difficulties<br />but dun bother about me ya<br />coz i promised i will be strong and well<br /><br />no more doing things for u...<br />no more thinking abt u...<br />i know when n where to hide my feelings...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110949574620104598?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1109434699268974462005-02-27T16:20:00.000+08:002005-02-27T00:18:19.270+08:00ur words hurt<br />ur words are clear n sharp<br />i comprehend every single one of them<br />i cant help but feel terribly sad n hurt...<br /><br />i have nv ever wanted anything from u<br />i dun even dare to dream of having any responses from u<br />i know very well that i dun deserve to have any<br />so u dun need to feel that u ought to give my any answers or responses<br />coz u really dun have to... ...<br /><br />i went to temple to pray for u n me<br />to pray that u are happy<br />to pray that i m happy for as long as i see u happy<br />all i wanted was that u can have lesser troubles n are happy with ur one<br /><br />i nv wanted to snatch u fr anyone<br />i nv wanted u to be mine<br />i nv wanted to force u to accept me<br />i swear i nv... ... i swear i nv... ...<br />i love to see u happy as a fren<br />i really wish n hope for wholeheartedly... ...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110943469926897446?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1109270117231283002005-02-26T18:35:00.000+08:002005-02-27T00:20:57.310+08:00this shall be my longest blog so far... i m not fluent or well versed in my lang so pls be forgiving.. and so sorry for such dreadful n solemn blogs again...<br /><br />many days that had past are torturing to me<br />i m sad but u arent as much as i was<br />memories keep flashing back...nth seems to be able to stop it from flowing back<br /><br />i rode the bus we once took<br />i chose the seat we once sat<br />i cuddled the bear u once hugged<br />i listened to the songs u once sang<br />subconsciously i did all these...<br /><br />wanted to forget u<br />to let u go away in my mind<br />that's y i went zouk last nite<br />i dun like drinking or clubbing at all<br />but y was i there last nite?<br />i promised my buddies that i willn't drink or dance<br />but i broke this promise<br />i didnt drink alot but i got dizzy after dancing for quite awhile<br />call me lousy call me silly call me anything that u like<br />n i will agree to all...yes i will agree to all...<br />sat by the bridge alone for half an hour<br />feeling cold n unwell...yet my mind still full of images of urs<br />u were out having fun but i was here feeling ill<br />i dun think u will ever know so i dun blame u<br />even if u know, u will not do anything, rite?<br /><br />woke up late for my meetings...did nth constructive for the group<br />i feel bad for doing the least amt of work for this group work<br />wat is the reason? issit because of u again?<br />went to meet my dearies...with one thing in my mind<br />how to tell them abt u? there is nth to tell...<br />i know they care alot for me...helping me to get through this stage<br />but i really dunno wat to tell them<br />coz there is nth to say when is only one-way traffic<br /><br />thinkin wat will u be doing rite now...or where will u be<br />will u be sad because i m sad?<br />or will u just be as happy as u are? even when knowing that i m sad for u? or sad because of u?<br /><br />they told me that u arent for me<br />u arent the type for me<br />i remain speechless and heartbroken<br />does this means that i shldnt have fallen into this pit?<br />does this also means that i m really waiting for no returns?<br />does this really means that i shld just give up coz this is wrong right from the beginning?<br /><br /><div>ya i m wrong... wrong to fall into this pit</div><div>so wrong that no one else could have done the same </div>attacks keep coming... i have no strength to build up my defencing line anymore<br />u come and attack me whenever u like, i was shot for as many times as u appeared<br />truly dead...<br /><br />i ought to have given u up long ago... but i kept falling back into the pit<br />now i know wat i shld do...<br />pick up shattering pieces of my heart and mend them back<br />one by one, day by day<br />i shld be spending the times thinking and feeling sad for u on my readings n designs<br />i shld eat n sleep healthy n happily<br />i must be the happy me<br /><br />i dunno how long will i get to accomplish these tasks<br />or will i accomplish them whole-heartedly n truthfully?<br />i wouldnt know... coz i know for sure i will not...<br /><br />u stay where u are... i remain where i m<br />no more u n i ...no more i n u...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110927011723128300?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1108995519871241782005-02-22T14:24:00.000+08:002005-02-21T22:20:59.040+08:00thousands of birds flew past<br />you chose to stop over my little island<br />spenting sufficient time on the island searching for your own soul<br />never intending to stay for long right from the start<br />after accomplishment you chose to leave with an imprint on the sand<br /><br />i was the stepping stone in the your life journey<br />i dun mind to be one<br />but i was hurt along the way for as long as your imprint stays vividly<br />in my mind and not the sand<br /><br />i drank because of you<br />i was sick because of you<br />i have rashes because of you<br />i am sad because of you too... ... not matter how many 'because of you' i typed, you still wouldnt know is you<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110899551987124178?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1108845777873513842005-02-21T08:45:00.000+08:002005-02-20T04:42:57.876+08:00dun understand wat i m feeling now... is so strange...<br />is 4.30am now and i m still awake...i cant sleep..<br /><br />suppose to be a ex-studio gathering today at 2 at orchard but end up in my house playing mahjiong...<br />got dennis grace daniel then later came xingyun<br />actually i have this feeling when i was playing mahjiong...<br />so after we left for grace's house, i got myself a bottle of alcohol...5%...<br /><br />went to her house and drank about 3/4...coz dennis wanted to try as well...<br />then grace shared with us a bottle of grapewine...abt 13.5%...i drank 2 glasses...<br />i felt hot and dizzy but still not enough to make me high enough to forget things...<br />i just got too depressed that not enough alcohol could relieve me....<br /><br />dun ask me y i m feeling this way...i will nv tell...<br />btw, this is only the second time i take alcohol drinks...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110884577787351384?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1108708416764371892005-02-20T04:43:00.000+08:002005-02-19T00:56:04.543+08:00if a caged bird escapes, it will never return to the cage...<br />if you let the strip goes, the balloon will never get back to your hand...<br /><br />coz i am a lost child... i am easily deceived by people...<br />i dont have confidence... i dont have determination...<br />i seldom says no... people seems to control me much more than i control myself...<br /><br />if you let me go, i will never return to you...<br /><br />have you ever spare a thought for my feelings? or do u ever bother to care? i guessed i am lost...<br /><br />some thoughts running through my mind, havent been accepting what i have been feeling, i have rejected facing the reality for quite some time... coz i knew nth will happen besides staying the same old me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110870841676437189?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1108401497784817422005-02-15T17:20:00.000+08:002005-02-15T01:18:17.786+08:00met up with my dearies ling n shu... nv knew they had been through this much ... suddenly feel that i m so lousy... they are handling far much more better than i do.... theirs prob are more more complicated than mine.... heard their stories... i dunn how to console but then i can provide a listenin soul for both of them...<br /><br />today was the final p1 submission day... have been ard in studio for quite many hours... spent time together dragfting and making models...<br /><br />sth strikes me... makin me wonder... but then after talkin to ling, i realised love can be this fragile... this weak.... but one thing for sure, is so so so nice to be about to be with the one u love and the one shower care and concern for u... i guess this will nv happen to me .... hahha<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110840149778481742?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1107972945868802932005-02-10T18:18:00.000+08:002005-02-10T02:15:45.866+08:00just came back fr grandma's house... i dun have much mood to celebrate chinese new year...dunno y... <br />relatives came to my house in the afternoon...they are getting more fake-y each year... i locked myself in my room with my siblings n played mahjong... dun wanna see the fake-y pple outside... <br /> <br />readin thru my ss notes while finding new nice songs... then i chanced upon this song... by clay aiken n kimberly locke - without you... is really really v nice... the lyrics are so so true...but it make me feel sad... <br /> <br />i woke up n felt empty...cant find the reason <br />i ate my dinner n felt empty as well... cant find the reason as well <br />suddenly i tot of a reason... <br />this 'emptiness" has got to do with u... <br />not used to this sudden emtpiness... <br />but i have to get myself thru no matter wat... <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110797294586880293?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1107890861186016272005-02-09T19:48:00.000+08:002005-02-09T03:27:41.186+08:00i saw ur photos with her... i felt jealous, sad n angry all at the same time... in the past, u dun like to take photos so we nv have one photo to keep with... now u took dozens of photos with her... so close n loving... n u posted them in ur friendster account openly... i m heartbroken... <br /> <br />although u sms me last week abt meetin up to catch with each other, i felt u wasnt sincere... lookin thru the photos tat u had, thinkin about how happy n loving the relationship u are having now, i tot i m just a dumpin bag for u to pour in ur sorrows.. i dun mind being ur dumpin bag but i hope u do rem the times we shared before... i must admit i was in the wrong to give u up then but i tot u are v lucky n happy with ur present life now... so fulfiling n exciting... i wish u all the best... <br /> <br />i saw her in the pic smiling so happily so sweetly so lovingly.. i read the testimontials she wrote for u.. expressing how much how deep her love is for u... i must say i hate that she wrote this much for u..she did this much for u... u nv knew wat she had done in the past when we were still together coz i didnt know as well... till now then i realised she plotted everything in order to have u, to be with u... to break me away fr u... to take u away from me... coz in ur eyes she is such a wonderful friend back then...i was too navie then to think that she is my godsister... n to think that everyone ard me is as nice as i tot... i m too naive.. too too naive... i hate myself for being one such child... <br /> <br />i know u will nv get to read this blog but i need to let my feelings go somewhere.. this is e only place where i pour in my sorrows.. no one is my dumpin bag..u arent too... u dun listen to wat i say anymore, u dun bother to understand me anymore, u dun care how i feel anymore.. coz u have her... although it has been 3 years, i still rem v vividly the days we spent together... dun ask me y i m still thinkin abt them now...coz i dun know myself either.. i guessed i m one who dote on memories, be it sad or happy... i m such an irrational child.. i hate to face reality n i kept dwellin to the past... <br /> <br />many asked me y i m still single.. even u did... i cant answer u this question becoz i dunno myself ... but i guessed i really have nth to be attractive enough to be attached... no more the past me.. no more the quiet n reserved girl back during sec sch days.. no more the girl who can do everythin so perfectly... wat is left is an ugly lihui... the child who talks craps, the child who dun wants reality, the child who insist on perfection but failed to achieve it all the time now... the child who is bad-hearted, selfish n silly....the child whom no one will like... so this is me.. do u still want to meet me? i doubt u wanna face me anymore coz i fear tat i will scare u... i dun want to spoilt the impression that u still have abt me back a year ago... i hope u will keep this better impression for long than to see me now again... coz lihui is an ugly duckling...n nv will turn into beatiful swan..nv will... nv... i wish u all the best in this new year ahead...i know with her ard u, u sore to the sky safetly... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110789086118601627?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1107756508176360932005-02-07T06:05:00.000+08:002005-02-07T14:08:28.176+08:00sth is wrong with me... dunno y also... <br />grace helpin me message now ...hahha not bad huh... <br /> <br />really dunno y i m in this state today... is v v wrong la... dunno how n dunno wat to do... <br /> <br />i m going to CBB all guys from today onwards... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110775650817636093?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1107578997077403892005-02-05T05:00:00.000+08:002005-02-05T21:55:23.896+08:00talked to clar just now... realised that she is right... i got nan ren yuan but luckily i am not always surrounded by a group of guys... <br /> <br />thought through about this.. well, thinkin back, i realised in fact what she said is quite true.. ever since sec school ba... hm.. or shld i said primary as well? .. anyway, i dunno y i got this yuan also... in fact, i dun want it.. i denied this fact... coz i m scare.. scare to be in this situation again...where frens who are once close to me distant away becoz i said is impossible... having been in this cirumstance once is terribly enough... i dun want to lose any more frens... i treasure friendship alot... friendship is more important than relationship... <br /> <br />i m one who dun go for a "trying" relationship coz to me, love comes so naturally n beautifully that u dun even noticed its existence... is something that cannot be tried out to test its existence.. it's so wonderfully bonded between 2 people that no one thing can damage or destroy it... even if 2 of them are far apart, love is still in the air...linked by the 2 minds, 2 souls and 2 hearts... so when it comes to be in a relationship, to me it is the telepathy that have between the 2 lovers... only 2 persons who are in love can have this telepathy... or shld i say only this telepathy that links the 2 lovers' hearts? ... well, havin said so much, i have one final thing to say... unless i found this linking telepathy in this person, i will be a nun.... no more trying, no more Tom and Harry stuff... i see love so perfectly... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110757899707740389?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1107442672480303432005-02-04T03:28:00.000+08:002005-02-03T23:24:56.040+08:00hey wat is the matter with me? wat is going on man? i dun even understand myself... wat actually do i want? <br /> <br />someone told me i not bad huh got tao hua yun this period..but then i kept askin myself are they or not? seriously i dun think so lor... who m i to have such "yun" anyway? also i really cant be bother by all these stupids n childlish confessions... hey come on la, who really know the inner part of me? i dun even know myself lor... so who are these pple then? they like me just because of the outer me? or what? their eyes had got serious problems la...wat is there in me that will attract pple la? none lor! seriously, NONE! definitely no aappreance or inner beauty lor.. so i said, these are rubbish man! so stop it, dun say like when u dun even undertstand the meaning of liking... like is a feeling when it comes by so sweetly that u dun even realise its existence... <br /> <br />also dun take advantage of my friendliness... i can talk to anybody as close or as far as i like... but definitely i dun have any intentions in doing so... i m merely just trying to spead laughters ard n to lighten pple's long boring day by chatting up with them... i dun like means dun like... i want to be a nun so that's it! guys, go away from me! far far far away! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110744267248030343?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1107194244376879102005-02-01T18:00:00.000+08:002005-02-01T01:59:14.833+08:00for the past few days n the whole of today, i have been hearin this qn again n again.... alamak..the answer is no no no!! dun spoilt my reputation!! hahaha !!... <br /> <br />well, i heard that again.... <br />hm..well this time rd i shld say... <br />i shldnt be bother by it ya.... <br />well, i said that again... <br />hm..dun think too much lihui... <br /> <br />haha...wat m i thinkin of n wat m i doin?? <br />?? qn marks everywhere?? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110719424437687910?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1106939336447755052005-01-29T19:10:00.000+08:002005-01-29T03:08:56.446+08:00for the entire day, my stomach was aching...guessed it must be gastric flu..bought a bowl of wantan noodle but didnt finish it...ate abt one-third ba.... <br />was thinkin abt my design after tat.....still cant really resolve the spaces yet...but the concept is there..... <br />went for colour n visions lect but dun understand wat the lect teachin....was i paying attention or was i smsin? not sure myself too....all i know is that i felt being dragged to the lect.... <br />went to holland v to celebrate kenneth sim bday at crystal jade...haha is so nice n sweet to be together again...really really miss them alot...every single one of them...we all shared happy sweet nice little memories here n there..... ate the cake...smashed the other one on his face...haha he wasn angry but still play along...that is the right spirit!! i like it!! went ktv...haha our common unsaid activity! sang songs together...old n new songs...heard familiar voices....caught that sweet memory back.... to actually think that although we are now scattered into many different studios, we are still clickish....we still look out for one another....n we are still here singing ktv!..... <br /> <br />came home...saw a freaky doll in the corner of the lift..scare my life out of me lah... <br /> <br />was talkin abt being lonely in life with dan in the cab....told mel tat i think i going to be nun on msn... haha i think is really going to be true for me....seriously i dun see any good things in me.... just a irritating stupid silly girl out here.....nvm...is okie for me...i guessed i had reached that stage where i have resigned to the truth the fact the reality n the FATE.... <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110693933644775505?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1106497433746212192005-01-24T16:26:00.000+08:002005-01-24T00:23:53.746+08:00realised i still have this avoidance in me <br />realised i dun like hearin u <br />realised i dun like talkin to u <br /> <br />realised u felt the same too <br />realised u dun like talkin to me too <br />realised u dun like hearing me too <br /> <br />so good...less friction less hatred <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110649743374621219?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1106297227652113212005-01-21T21:20:00.000+08:002005-01-21T17:16:43.746+08:00went chinablack last nite...hm...felt super extra coz i was the only one in white! but coz i dun have black ones! haizz..nvm...hm...got some irritating guys pestering my frens...haha...but nvm..they arent impt...went to have supper with my ex studiomates! great food great accompany but a tired me...haha coz i was in CB fr 10 lor till nearly 2am......so tired... went straight home n goes to bed...haha... <br /> <br />came home online today at abt 1pm...he was online as well....hm..we talked rubbish again...haha...talked almost abt everything n anything but still we didnt talk abt personal stuff...good good...coz i dun have to talk abt that also....haha....just simple pure chat is nice....then he left coz he needs to go to his sister's place... <br /> <br />he will be in sch tml...doing his stuff...haha poor fellow.... <br /> <br />later i will be goin back hall coz all my stuffs are there...i need to study la...so haiz must go back hall... sian alone later again.... <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110629722765211321?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1105983782025646312005-01-18T17:55:00.000+08:002005-01-18T01:43:02.026+08:00i heard it again.... <br />the same sentence u had mentioned before <br />u wouldnt realise u said it twice <br />u wouldnt know it actually hurts me <br />u wouldnt know coz i didnt know it myself either <br />till now i still qn myself <br />till now i ask y m i feeling sad over wat u had said? <br />till now i still qn myself <br />till now i realised i m missing the piece and not the whole... <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110598378202564631?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1105846567305060382005-01-17T03:40:00.000+08:002005-01-16T11:38:35.116+08:00wanted to blog last nite but too tired le...so have to blog now...actually wat i want to blog abt is wat happen 2 days ago...haha...coz i cant connect to the internet when i m in the hall....sobsob... <br /> <br />fri nite....as usual ..alone in the hall....submission for the stupid vertical studio is finally over...dun like some of the yr 2 coz they think they so good then always so arrogant....wanted to help but cant contribute much coz they were still discussing wat to design for the lounge 3 hours before the submission time....weirdo pple! also they ignored the yrs 1 so they did everything fr desgin concept to ppt slides....haha so wat is left for the yrs 1 to do?.....model making? yup yup only part of the model was did by the yrs 1 coz 2 of the yrs 2 are more professional in model making......hahha so wat have i contribute? haha...the walls n parts of the partition....i dun even know wat was the concept....haiz...forget...just another week to let me slack ard....hahaha... <br />well...there is one yr 2 who is closer to the yrs 1 ...he understood how we yr 1 feel....n he was the joker ard....so good good....he added laughter to my week of sianness.... haiz...if only the rest of the yrs 2 are like him..... <br /> <br />in the hall...cant connect to net...super sian...called pple to help but they all not free...then cand called, zh called jer called...then again back to facing my stupid lappy...on the music coz is too too quiet in the night...i scare scare...was studyin while listenin to my fav songs...then came that song...i suddenly stopped studyin...i went to look through my photos of them...feel sad...suddenly my mind went blank...n the next moment i know was that i was hugging my pillow n eyes become watery.....also dunno y....wanted to blog but cant...wanted to talk on msn but cant...so everything cant cant cant... <br /> <br />then sat came.....super sian n sad coz i failed to find sth.....tot having lunch with my godbro n jer they all...but he last min cant make it....so we went shoppin at orchard...ate n talked...did nth much....then ended the day with checkin lots of mails n finally get to log on to msn.... <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110584656730506038?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1105460611992763432005-01-12T17:35:00.000+08:002005-01-12T01:08:51.236+08:00how many days have i not blog?...sch started...no time to blog...also in hall no connection to blog...no msn no net...i m bored n lonely in the confined cold room i have..... <br /> <br />came home today coz grandma missed me..true or not? dunno....but i miss my bed n the home-cooked food... i miss my winnie the pooh....i miss e comfort n warmth in the house.... <br /> <br />bought more stuffs...more stuffs to bring tml morning....got dustbin, clothes, basket, containers, laptop....can i manage alone? or shld i ask my gor? or who can i ask??...i dun dare to ask anyone....i scare to ma fan them....so well i guess i will take back to hall myself tml morning...i can do it! <br /> <br />new studio new mates?...i wasnt close to cherie in the old studio but these 2 days, i knew her better...she is so lame la! well, dennis? haha same old dennis lor...e rest? robin-friendly...who else?? haha i dunno le....i miss my old studio....i miss xy, olivia, grace, wj, daniel, brandon, mel, shirong... ...how how? i wanna cry le.... <br /> <br />this vertical studio then?...a waste of time coz i just dun feel committed in doing it...but still it is graded n stupid fong is our tutor...have to see him on thur...haizz no choice then.... <br /> <br />live the day by slackin ard...live the day by missing pple...live the day with no aim....live the day with boredom n sorrow....live the day by fear of liking someone....wat kind of life do i have?..... <br />hahhaha...lihui u are mad mad mad....y are u so sad all the time?? <br /> <br />i hope i do know the answer myself too.... <br /> <br />just read clare's blog - she took the courage to tell him le....via jer...clare, i guessed u knew the answer rite fr the start but i know is sad to see that he havent put in effort to talk to u when u have been tryin so hard urself...clare, move on... <br />read cand's blog - she still missed him so badly....even though after so long....cand, i think u really have fallen into the pit le....cand, climb out asap ya? i know is hard but there are always 3 strong ropes to help u get out...u know which 3 ropes rite?.... <br />read jer's blog - so coincidence that he liked green tea ice cream as well....jer i know is v irritating that u n him have so many similarities....esp when u have decided to forget him...but jer, think in this way ya...there are also many pple who loves the same stuff as u but u dunno them only ya?.... <br /> <br />they had all told 'hims'....even clare did....haha left me?..... no i will not...coz...no one?? <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110546061199276343?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1105207570813004942005-01-08T18:17:00.000+08:002005-01-09T02:06:10.813+08:00has been a long time since i last blogged....went for the csc chalet...he didnt come...n i dun feel anything...as in i dun feel angry sad or anything...my feelings for him has died? true or not? i not sure myself either...i only know tat this pit of him...i have already filled up the ground with soil n plants....no way m i going to fall into this pit again...no way.... <br /> <br />made a turn n i almost fall into another one....one leg in ...the other out...so wat is this? <br />i also dunno....n i realised i cant be bother to find out anymore...i m tired....exhausted...i have no time no energy no xin qin to think abt such matters.... <br /> <br />studies is piling up soon...v soon...csc n yep stuffs coming up as well....i hope i have done my part in csc....i dun want to be name as the irresponsible one....hope they can understand that i m fr archit n i m packed.... <br /> <br />new studio new frens....old table old dennis old cherie....glad i wasnt in rj's grp if not i will have slap him....3 core modules n 1 ss 1 gem....many frens takin with me...great! wonderful!..... <br /> <br />this new sem i m stayin hall....eusoff hall...went in today...the room is okie..but i felt confined...i will be sad...coz i know no one there....i will be depressed during the nights...but who is going to care abt me?.....shifting in my stuff all by myself has already made me sad....if only i have a bf, i wouldnt be so pathetic...i have to carry all my heavy stuffs myself....n took bus...mum wants me to save $...dun allow me take cab....i feel sad....i have to clean the room myself as well...i cant reach the fan....the top of windows n cupboards...... jer cand n clare are helpin me tml to clean the room coz of....haha...well thanks rp mates!..i still appreciate ur help! haha.... <br /> <br />new term new wishes.....wat shld i wish? ahha...just wish tat everyone ard is happier even though i m not.... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110520757081300494?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1104593807816937622005-01-02T15:40:00.000+08:002005-01-01T23:36:47.816+08:00same feeling trapped within me <br />i cant let go because <br />the door isnt open,so are the windows <br />i tot i will be shaken easily,so i have many inner locks <br />but i left the keys outside the door <br />subconsciously i did so... ... <br /> <br />why am i doing this? <br />i cant find the answer in my head <br />but i think it lies in the corner of my heart <br />there'll always be this space left for u <br />so i left the keys outside for u to come in... ... <br /> <br />i guessed u r the only one <br />the only key to let my feelings go away <br />the only one to unlock all the locks <br />the only one to lock all the locks as well <br />because u r the only one with the keys... ... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110459380781693762?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1104586429310734512005-01-01T21:33:00.000+08:002005-01-01T21:33:49.310+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/129_2927withlyrics.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/129_2927withlyrics.jpg'></a><br />nv will i forget this song....&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110458642931073451?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1104517732702471322005-01-01T18:42:00.000+08:002005-01-01T02:28:52.703+08:00just came back fr esplanade...spent the last few hours of 2004 with cand, jer and clare....saw many couples ard...holding hands, hugging and kissing, taking photos with a bouquet of flowers,sweet talks everywhere...i am jealous...lonely....felt unwanted...2004 had ended...it has been 3 years since i broke up with my ex...have been spending festive seasons either alone or with gals frens....so where is my the other half ever going to appear??... maybe he will never appear...never... <br />i guessed i had managed to climb out 2 pits out of the 3 dark bottomless pits... but just as i have guessed so...this is the wrong pit to stay in as well....we arent compatible at all...not at all....everything is so clear after knowing wat he really feels inside... though i knew is impossible between the 2 of us, i still feel sad by wat i had learnt fr him today......to think that i was still talkin abt him during the last few hours of 2004 to my rp mates, i felt real stupid n dumb... ... ... ... <br />okie ...forget it lihui...is a new year now..a long year ahead 2005... i shld nt think of anyone anymore...my mind shall be filled with studies n studies n studies... ... anyway i m a nobody.... ya a nobody....so no one will ever bother or care abt a nobody... ... good...everyone is leaving me alone...good...i m leading my own life....good....i have all the time in the world with me n myself....good...v good.... <br /> <br />will a list of new year resolutions make my life more organized? will i do it? i hope i really will.... <br /> <br />1) i want to make myself happier by doing the things i like to do - sleeping, swimming, tanning n playing volleyball <br />2) i want to be myself - i dun want to bother n care abt how pple sees me as....they see me lousy rite? i m going to learn not to care or be affected by wat they said... <br />3) improve my grades - a must thing <br />4) i want to do more good deeds - i want to give tuition to the Chen Su Lan children...i wanna play with them... <br />5) i want my life to be more organized - with the right directions.... <br />6) i want to learn driving after sem 2 <br />7) i want to be more knowledgeable so i must read more books to upgrade myself... <br />8) i want my complexion to improve <br />9)i want to lose weight - by 5 kg! coz i wanna get rid of my baby face... shall cut down on fatty food such as ice cream, rice, cakes, chocolate n titbits <br />10) i want to give in my best effort in everything i do.... <br />sorry that i have one more than my rpmates'.... <br />11) i want to forget him....n carry on with my life the same old way...i really want to... <br /> <br />will i be able to abide to fulfill this list of resolutions alone? will i have the power, courage n energy to do it alone? ....i hope i can.....i really hope i can do it all by myself.....coz i dun think anyone will care abt me....so even if i fall, is my own business....i m left alone for this 2005....all alone....alone.... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110451773270247132?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1104162622246265012004-12-28T17:02:00.000+08:002005-01-01T02:33:35.386+08:00haha...rp day today...went ktv for free...sang songs madly...n ya i think SHE yi qi kai shi de lu cheng is our rp theme song....is v suitable for us....n also nice song....rp mates came my hse to check modules..cand slackin ard with my bloster..haha...then went for desserts! wow...we really enjoyin life ya! <br />anyway, coz of our shitty grades...we rp mates have this dont's n do's! <br /> <br /><strong>OUR DONT's</strong> <br />1-dont get attached fr this period - 1st jan to 30th april <br /><em>but if we met with unforeseen circumstances we must have rpmates' approval first...haha..or else will get kick out of rp</em> <br />2- dont cry n be troubled over the guys that we like <br />3- dont chat more than five times a week on msn <br />4-dont change our character becoz of our hims' - be ownself! <br />5-dont care! <br /> <br /><strong>OUR DOs'</strong> <br />1-do meet up with rp mates twice a month <br />2-do consistent studying!! <br />3-do pay attention in class n tutorials <br />4-do score at least 1 A n not C for exams! <br />5-do stay happy! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110416262224626501?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1104071306006447512004-12-27T14:26:00.000+08:002004-12-29T16:43:47.263+08:00got lousy grades..pathetic cap pts..others are like scoring above 4 lor... ... lousy hui= shitty grades..even rj got 4.3...wat is this? shit me! ..talked to rp mates for a while in the afternoon.. <br />Went out for jc class gathering..only a few of us turned up..rest have all sorts of reasons for not coming..dun bother also...then ah ling came n pointed at me with her finger...give attitude to me during dinner.. sms her wat happen, she replied - only these 2 freaks come ...i came coz to give u face! - wow ! good la! this attitude to me! my fault that they came lah...they also in our class wat...they free they come la..e rest cant come my fault la?? she kept repeatin this till i said back - wat u want? they also in our class wat...wat is so big deal that u come? ur gang also fly kite..u can choose not to come also wat...no diff that u come n give me this attitude.. - ya i m fierce but i m super angry with her la...she jolly well know that her gang not coming n that e 2 freaks are coming wat....ya ya ya ya ALL MY FAULT LA!!! everything my fault!! went to pool to watch them played coz not in e mood to play..then i sms him..wanted to ask him to pei me go ktv one but in e end dun wan le...walked home...in fact strolled home with a heavy heart.... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110407130600644751?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1104075048622174072004-12-27T03:43:00.000+08:002004-12-26T23:30:48.623+08:00okie i think i cant delay anymore..i shall post my ideal guy blog..or else i will be kick out of RP.... <br /> <br />my ideal guy..... <br />1-taller than me...easy la coz i m short but must be at least 170cm... <br />2-can be reserved at times..coz i dun like noisy bf... <br />3-sporty n active ....coz i like sports n tanning..so he can pei me go tanning n play vb at sentosa <br />4-romantic...sorry coz i like to fantasie...long for fairy tales-liked relationship <br />5-no need to be rich...i dun like money 2 be an issue.... <br />6-must not be egoistic or a male chauvinist! ...these type of guys turn me off most! <br />7-must be thoughtful n filial to family members n frens....the best bf to have rite? <br />8-a plus point - have telepathy with me....coz my ex n i had.... <br />9-know how i feel even when i didnt say or show out.....i like to know each other's feelings thru seeing fr e eyes <br />10-can get along with my frens....i dun want to have the title of zhong se qing you! haha <br /> <br />easy rite? 10 only lor...then all so easy one... <br />but y is that that my status is still single?? haha....is not that my expections are high..is becoz i m lousy... <br /> shitty character + lousy hui = single n childish lihui! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110407504862217407?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1103912256315507412004-12-25T18:19:00.000+08:002004-12-25T02:17:36.316+08:00met singling shuhui n her bf in the afternoon..exchanged gifts n had dinner at some jap restaurant..quite exp..since i m on diet, i had a bowl of tofu n one ice cream waffle...hm..i skipped my lunch today...then met rp mates..went fisherman village...wow! a romantic place to spend with couples! definitely i have the wrong companion today!! on christmas eve!hahaha... <br />okie...they have their dinner there..exchanged gifts as well..i got a belt fr candice..the design quite cool ...haha got many holes! hope i can get into the last hole which meant i have slim slim waist!..pple i m on diet!! hehe.had put on weight this holiday!! fatty lihui! <br />well..we chatted alot at the beach...talked n sang songs n made wishes!! fun fun fun !! <br />actuali i dun have alot to say coz all time is clare doing the talking...i just pop out a few sentences now n then...but well we knew wat stage each of us have reached so far...n that we will move on as usual..nth much actuali...as per normal...same same all days long ahead.... <br />rp mates asked me to write my blog on ideal guy asap coz dec is ending soon..shall write tml..i m tired.... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110391225631550741?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1103822985628117992004-12-24T17:42:00.000+08:002004-12-24T01:35:11.130+08:00went to kk hopsital to organise a christmas party with the children diagnoised with childhood cancer...they are so adorable,so young n so innocent...i love them so much...but dunno y e moment i see them smiled my heart hurts...maybe is becoz i feel sad for them...there is so much meaning behind each smile..n so much pain to express wat they really feel behind this little smile...they knew wat is going thru them although they are so young...but still they are kids...they need love, care n concern... their lifes are so fragile...have to receive treatment in the clinic now n then whenever they have relapses...be left alone without their family members at night in the wards...they nv knew wat will happen to them in the next minute or sec...they just carry on life with the every moment they have with their families and frens sharin the same ward...tml is a gift... <br /> <br />i m emtionally affected by wat i had seen today...i learnt to feel alot...as i played with them, e thought of not being able to see them as healthy, as lively n cheerful saddens me...shawn has such an handsome face - he might be a global model in the future!...adam has a smart look - he might be our future top scholar!...jacehey has the sweetest smile i had ever seen - she might our Ms Singapore!...there is so many 'might be'..will time allow these 'might be' to come true?... ... ... i feel sad..but cant cry out... <br /> <br />came home with a headache..dunno y..went to sleep till 11pm n came online... <br />talked to jer n clare...cand offline...he came online to tell me that he cant stay for e chalet coz he got to work...him n his work...money is all in his mind... ~ forget it hui...u cant be bother with these trival stuffs anymore...if they come, they come..if not i shall stay in the room n be entertained by clare ~ i m not going to organise for them since they cant be bother 2 reply despite my frequent floodin of emails... dun bully me, i m human as well..i will n can get real angry...try me if u dare... <br />received 5 sms fr him le n also a chirstmas card...i knew wat he wants...he asked me to forget wat he had done..but sorry i knew him too well, he had already done it for 5 yrs n i know unless i go invisible or he will persist...i m not the lihui he used to know n i know myself best...pls stop it...before i call back to scold him... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110382298562811799?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1103824016192775972004-12-24T01:46:00.000+08:002004-12-24T01:46:56.193+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/23rd%20Dec%20&#39;04%20CCF%20X&#39;mas%20Party_3.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/23rd%20Dec%20&#39;04%20CCF%20X&#39;mas%20Party_3.jpg'></a><br />the social workers, mr wilson n the volunteers at kk&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110382401619277597?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1103563904508859952004-12-21T17:33:00.000+08:002004-12-21T11:52:26.040+08:00just came back fr malaysia..tired n restless..headaches coz sms kept comin in once i reached sing..y y? y do i have so many things not done yet? n y is he still smsing me? can he STOP IT!! i cant stand him anymore...i had made myself v clear each time n y does he still dun understand? i really having headache now...i feel like crying n hide inside my inner shell where there is no disturbance at all... ... <br /> <br />read rp mates' blogs...realised clare have had an account with zebra..wonder how was it... knew that cand still cant let go...jer? tired n restless fr working..no blog abt watermelon but i believed she still thinking abt him... n of course, read their blogs for their ideal partners...clare asked me to write too... <br /> <br />i dun feel like writing coz i m thinkin of someone else...which i believed he wasnt the ideal one that i used to wish for... <br />while travelling on the coach, i was listening to my discman n thinkin n missing of someone at the same time...i let myself down coz i had permitted him into my world again...i wonder y m i doing so...getting to lose myself in my love life...i m getting out of hand! <br /> <br />wat is the definition of ideal? the perfection of man kind? will there ever exist such one? we all know the answer but y are we still searching unconsciously? acception or rejection when one comes along? true love conquers all? or puppy love that develops becoz of a crush only? is there really wat pple say abt chemistry? or is it just an excuse to find better ones? ...y m i asking these then since i knew e answers best for myself? <br /> <br />maybe i will write my ideal one tml when i have a more refreshed mind... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110356390450885995?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1103217221368987272004-12-17T17:25:00.000+08:002004-12-17T01:15:31.173+08:00i m running...in the other direction..heading towards the path of no reality... <br />i m escaping... no courage to face up any questions that have been hanging over me for the past few weeks... <br /> <br />leave me alone...dun worry abt me...i m safe in the dreamy perfect world of my own... <br />thanks for offering to help me...but no amont of conuselling will help... <br /> <br />i m in a state of confusion...i refused to accept the fact...i rejected the world of reality... i m stubborn <br />i m flying to my world... dun join me coz is not the rite way to settle matters... <br /> <br />i will continue my routine...i will eat play n sleep... i will talk smile n laugh... <br />i will let time take over my heart, my mind n my soul.... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110321722136898727?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1103130813708989752004-12-15T17:16:00.000+08:002004-12-16T01:54:41.203+08:00just came back home after ktv...shld be feeling high after singing but i wasnt...not anywhere near to happy either... <br />sometimes sth just happen without a reason, no reason to start no reason to end..... love, somehow started somehow ended in almost every relationship...there seems like there is no more long lasting relationship existing now... ... is this true? i still long for fairy tales... ... <br /> <br />missing someone so dearly to just learn that the other party isnt feeling the same way is heartbreaking...my heart hurts every moment n every sec when i think of him... now i knew rejection isnt the worst circumstance to face after all, missing someone whom u know he wouldnt miss u as much is the worst... ... <br /> <br />sorry that i miss u, sorry that i think of u, sorry for me being with u all along, sorry for me sticking to u, sorry for everything, sorry that i fell into the pit, sorry for not having enough determination to climb out, sorry that i have a liking for u, sorry that i cant stop myself fr all these sorries... ... <br /> <br />i m not crying...but tears are trapped inside... .. there is a waterfall within me..... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110313081370898975?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1103018339473414772004-12-15T10:05:00.000+08:002004-12-16T00:45:13.736+08:00is really a wonderful day today....the children from chen su lan home came down to ecp for cycling..clar n i were there as volunteers ...hm...sad to say i went to the home only twice n didnt continue to stay on coz during the school term, my building module clashed with the visiting hours....so i wasnt officially attached to any kid or shld i say i wasnt close to the kids ya... <br /> <br />initially, i was sad becoz i tot i dont have any kid to look after so i could only cycle alone...but hahah!! becoz one of the kid's "jie jie" cant cycle so i took charged n look after a girl.her name was Theresa...when i first saw her, i was scared coz i tot i cant handle her...her face was black..probably becoz she was sad n angry that her jiejie cant cycle with her so i tot that she wouldnt like me...a total stranger to her... but i knew i have to overcome this fear so i broke the ice..:)...hm...firstly i have to change my "channel" to channel 5 ...funny...think i spoke too softly that she couldnt hear me so after a few times she gave up talking to me...luckily, i realised that n continued talkin to her... <br /> <br />okie we started cycling...did i forget to say i got a little phobia abt cycling?? coz i fell off a bike when i was in pri 6 at ECP!! n one thing, i cant cycle fast n well either..so when she started cycling, i was shocked n embarrassed! she can cycle so fast!! but ya...not steady... anyway, she cycled in front of me n i was at the back..making sure she didnt fall off the bicycle whenever she hears the ringing of the bicycle's bell coz she is scared of cyclers cycling behind her... so i told her to stop only if she hears me calling her, if not, continue to cycle n not get distracted whenever any bell rings...u know, sometimes people just love to play with the buzzer... *_* ...actually, i was cycling alongside with clar n her kid but Theresa just cycled along without waiting for them so i had to follow up rite? hahaha!! then when she finally pulled to a halt, she asked me where is her fren( also called Theresa) n clare! haha...i told her she is cycling v slowly coz she has phobia as well! hahaha...( clare sorry!! coz is the truth too!!) hm...she was curious as to waht phobia meant so i explained..i was glad that she asked coz this shows that she is keen in learning n she dont treat me as a stranger too!..i was delighted! <br /> <br />chatted very comfortably while cycling...at one point, she turned her head to talk to me n when she turned back, she couldnt brake in time n clashes onto the small bike in front..she fell off...i quickly attended to her...luckily, she has only a tiny cut but all over her legs were stained with the black oil...i brought her to the washroom n together with another teacher, we helped her cleaned up the stains...i was so anixous n worried that she might have other bruises that i kept asking her is there any other cuts?? pain anot??...she just smiled n said no...so sweet!..she even said a 'thank you"!! wow! the best moment to feel contributable to the society is when u received a thank you from the child!! i was really touched la!.....dun think i m being too emtional here coz i really feel good after hearing...really...is really a v meaningful day out with the kids... <br /> <br />as the dawn sets in, i feel sleepy...now i think i m going to take a nap..")... <br />having the chance to bring laughters to the kids is my greatest honour..... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110301833947341477?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102784532811796672004-12-12T17:04:00.000+08:002004-12-12T13:29:44.056+08:00yes put an end to this.....i dun wan to live under such stress anymore....no more such funny feelings please.... <br />i dun want to end up like a stupid fool... <br /> <br />yes funny feelings...towards 3 people..m i mad??? think i am...YES...i m mad...real mad this time! guess wat?? three different types of people walked into my life at different stages n upset my life...but dun think they ever know they had actually done so...who are these 3 people??? no i will not say.... <br /> <br />okie...my 22th talked to me today...finally...finally finally....i saw him online but didnt approached him coz i simply dun want to...so i waited...n waited....then "pop" ! yes yaya...he talked to me...his starting was v sweet n nice... <br /> <br />" hey <br />long time no c ya <br />haha <br />how's life " <br /> <br />okie...i know is a v common n simple starting conversation but u know...a word from him is like ah... *** diamonds dropping fr the sky la...and the most crucial thing is ...is me....this mad n dreamy girl here...the one who had done the most embarrasssed thing in life...dun ask me what i had done n pls dun bother to guess... <br />just a week ago...he sms me a forwarded msg..is sth abt thinkin n dreamin for a person......although is just a forwarded msg, from my always-quite-true sixth sense as well as my almost-100% rite intuition, there is some intention behind this sms...okie dun scold me....i know u will be scolding me for anyhow thinking again ..for being too sensitive rite??...no no...this person's attitude towards pple is icy cold..rather cool at times...so that's y i tot this way....okie okie...i hope i m wrong...really wrong....coz i dun wanna fall into the pit again n again...i fell once..real deep inside....the pit is completely dark n cold...not a single sign for way out ...but well finally got myself out of the pit this jan after being in there for 1 year n 6 mths....yes this long.... <br /> <br />then comes another pit...i fell into this pit myself....yes ya my fault...my fault...but i realised is a wrong pit n this time didnt fall too deeply inside....definitely less deeply as the first.... <br /> <br />u got wat i meant?? i dun dare to go near any pit anymore but y y y are they treating me so nice??? n y must they all appear now ?? together?? tryin to make me fall in n be ego abt it issit??? i realised i m now at the edge of a pit...half way down another....n three-quarters way down the last pit.... <br /> <br />is fine that u scold me crazy scold me mad scold me anything is okie coz i dun mind.....ya i feel the same way abt myself also.....i feel shitty....real shitty...rp mates can u all slap me??... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110278453281179667?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102688948958661042004-12-11T14:45:00.000+08:002004-12-10T23:26:19.286+08:00ya..me down with flu yet i was at ktv today!!...mad me...well though i wasnt feeling quite well i still came out coz it was a studio outing! but ....in the end how many turn up?? only 5 of us!! ...haha hope the next outing will have more pple... <br /> <br />ystd... <br />went to watch national treasure!(mel, if u r reading, i agreed with u that this show is worth watching!!)..nice show!...is funny..is abit touching...n is amazing! the clues are like so intelligently plotted!...wow! worth watching pple!...but the threatre too cold..caught the flu in the threatre.....went marche for dinner..haha we talked for a really v long time at marche lah...ya abt archit stuff...abt first impression...abt life style...abt almost everything lor....went home quite late...nearly 12midnight then reached home... <br /> <br />okie...tell u why i feel sad that v day...ya i said i realised that what i have been doing all seem to be so wrong.... ya true..i m a daydreamer, nv fail to fantasize so whatever i say or think is like nth to be considered of or shld i say pple usually dun listen to wat i said....first wrong thing....okie 2nd wrong thing...actuali is not a thing..is a fault...i dont know alot alot of stuff and yes..my language is lousy lousy....esp those topics that my frens talked abt...i feel stupid feel inferior coz i realised i dunno anything abt them...really...that's y i hate to accept wat pple said abt the good things abt me if they ever feel so coz they are wrong wrong wrong....not that i m sayin i m good or wat...is that i really dun feel anything good in me...i m not trying to play pathetic here or act pityful here...is like...aiya dunno how to say la!! i m just too lousy!..i know where my limits are...i know i know.... <br /> <br />dun feel like writing le...think i having slight fever...n ya still having flu n sore throat.... <br />n tml still hav to go back campus for vb....i dun wanna go but dunno how to reject....stupid me...st <br />upid stupid... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110268894895866104?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102533072284206982004-12-11T14:35:00.000+08:002004-12-10T22:29:37.526+08:00today was a tiring day for me...went to j8 for some supposed-to-be gift wrapping volunteering work but it turned out to be a stoning day for me...didnt sleep much last nite coz we rp mates went to jer house n stay over the night to talk....ya talked...and within that night too much things had happened... <br /> <br />in the morning, we went to buy stuff and within an hour we prepared a feast for only just the four of us! i cooked the jap curry! hm...i quite like my cooking...doesnt taste too bad! hehe... i had always wanted to be able to cook for my future partner...the feeling of cooking for him will be so sweet n loving... u know wat..i got scolded by my rp mates...coz i fantansize too much le...i m always dreaming....ya really dreaming ..is not thinking anymore is dreaming.... <br />went to hard rock cafe for dinner then played pool at cuppage...we had great fun at the pool table coz we are simply too too lousy!...we took such a long time to get in the black ball!...anyway, got back to jer house at 1.30pm.... n we went online...this is when many things unfolded... <br /> <br />i nv knew that within a few hours so much things can happen..the truths were out...for both cand n clare... <br />to clare: clare sorry...i actuali didnt want to hint him anything de but jer was thinkin of helpin u since we all 4 rp mates are here...though we didnt conclue anything for him, i guessed we all knew wat he is thinking in his mind ...i knew u are affected even though u had sort of mental prepared urself but i knew u are still feeling sad n down... clare, stay strong... u dun have to act unreal just for him...we are genuine...there is no wrong in the real u...is his way of thinking n his stupid concept for 19 yrs old girl... we were nv get to understand him coz he is too pessimistic....clare, carry on with life happily! <br />to cand: i know u are v sad...in fact terribly sad....sorry that i didnt do much to console u or help u find things out coz i really dunno how to...i tot maybe u wun rather not want to know the answer...but i know is hurtful to wait for the answer...cand, dun cry anymore...pls...ur eyes are puffy again le...sorry cand...is not tat i m not thinking for u or arent concern abt u that i kept quiet for most of the time last nite..coz i tot my way of thinking is too unrealistic and not pragmatic...but do stay strong...just pretend nth has happened...:) <br /> <br />jer, bon voyage! do enjoy e trip! take this chance to set ur mind free of unhappy stuffs...rp mates misses u! <br /> <br />u know wat...i feeling rather sad now coz it seems like whatever i had been doing or had done, all seem so wrong... i shall not say today...too sad to pen down my feelings right now... <br /> <br />tml going out for movie! finally someone is treating me nachos! though i sore throat i dun care! *dun care* motto~~rp mates' motto! haha... <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110253307228420698?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102534421099653132004-12-09T03:33:00.000+08:002004-12-09T03:33:41.100+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/IMGP0540.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/IMGP0540.jpg'></a><br />cute?? haha...&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110253442109965313?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102534277163391612004-12-09T03:31:00.000+08:002004-12-09T03:31:17.163+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/10.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/10.jpg'></a><br />jer n cand&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110253427716339161?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102534047887155372004-12-09T03:27:00.000+08:002004-12-09T03:27:27.886+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/3.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/3.jpg'></a><br />clar n me&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110253404788715537?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102533870039667682004-12-09T03:24:00.000+08:002004-12-09T03:24:30.040+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/7th%20dec%2004%20037.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/7th%20dec%2004%20037.jpg'></a><br />at hard rock cafe..&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110253387003966768?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102355429721102702004-12-07T18:04:00.000+08:002004-12-11T19:51:12.336+08:00a slacking day for me....i haven had this kind of day since i stepped into nus!...had been going out every single day since my last paper ended on thur...see?? now know y i m broke le ba.... <br /> <br />had been reading my RP mates' blog.....they all cried after reading each other's blog....but y m i not crying?? i guessed i m immuned...or maybe i really dun feel anything after so much things had happened...to them as well as to me myself..... <br /> <br />listening to the song "what are frens are for" by the singapore idols last few finalists....nice song....delicate to my RP mates.. <br />jer pls eat...dun ever skip meals again...dun torture urself...i know is hard but stay strong...sorry i cant help much...coz i dunno wat to do.... <br />cand, i dun really know wat happen but i think u are affected by the girl ya...stay strong....u nv know wat will happen coz he has yet make any move.....dun cry le....eyes will hurt...puffy eyes not cute le.. <br />clar, think u are the most clear n stable among us ba...i mean u know wat to do although u feel sad deep inside too...well, hope u stay cheerful everyday! <br /> <br />haha...u know wat?? he approached me today n guessed wat? we talked v normally n as causal as at the v beginning when we started talking on msn....the thing is he approached me first...i was quite shocked...ya abit happy too but i realised not as happy n as exicted as before...yy?? i asked clar this qn....she told me sth which i think is quite true... she said i m too confused in my heart n in my mind...i got to make clear of wat i need n want exactly....if not i will always stay this way....blur n more blur.... <br />pls dun treat me good ..dun treat me nice...if not..... <br /> <br />finally someone asked me out for a movie!! i have been waiting for people to catch movie with me! haha...u know wat?? ....i waiting for someone to ask me for a movie but is that him is not the other him...(rp mates, u will know who)...m i v bad?? v hua xin?? v er xin?? v tai xin?? i feel like slapping myself for thinking this way..... <br /> <br />is late...gotta sleep le...tml is a long day for me! cooking up a feast at jer house! <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110235542972110270?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102355885518210422004-12-07T01:58:00.000+08:002004-12-07T01:58:05.516+08:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/IMGP0464.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/IMGP0464.jpg'></a><br />sec buddies....missing out ping n clar&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110235588551821042?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102267854429007492004-12-06T17:15:00.000+08:002004-12-06T02:15:04.783+08:00i feel weird.....a part of me is not feeling good...not the right feeling to have....or shld i say i shldnt be feeling this way?? ... i dunno y m i feeling this way.....i hope i know the answer too.... <br />issit because i m jealous?? or do i envy them??....i feel rather sad....coz is not me.... <br /> <br />just came back from town....walked fr bugis to boat quay.....my legs are tired .....but i had great fun...i spend quality time with my old buddies! ... met singling in the afternoon..she updated me abt her stuffs...she seems lost and sad....hope she will get over it soon ya! ... met up 5 old sec buddies! ...candice, clarice jerene, xiaoyun and rosalyn...we kept talking like there is no tml...coz we have so much to catch up with one another! <br /> <br />i realised the view at boat quay is v romantic...jer mentioned that that place is not meant for a group of pple...n i agreed with her totally....i realised i really yearn to come to that place with my bf ( if only i have one) <br />hahah!! i m daydeaming again....... <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110226785442900749?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9461556.post-1102222437028744392004-12-06T06:52:00.000+08:002004-12-06T01:15:29.140+08:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/640/0%20007.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/13/2540/320/0%20007.jpg" border="0" /></a> <br />my studiomates!...alwayzz remembering all of u! <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a> <br /> <br />just ended my studio chalet at pasir ris on the 2nd... <br />what shld i say?? is really a wonderful chalet...i sort of missed the times with them....at the wild wild wet, at the bbq pit...around the" mahjong table".... <br />firstly we went shopping for food together as a whole studio...i thought this was a good thing coz we did everything all together as a big family! no one is left out! ...then we went back and prepare the food....hahha... melvin and weijun used hands to marignate the chickens!! me, daniel and grace settle the vege...stupid dennis didnt wash the tray before putting in the nice nice kebabs!! hahha but we finished preparing everything so quickly!! see? the power of groupwork! <br /> <br />okie then we went wild wild wet!!! so fun!! hahaha...i realised i played all the games even though i m scared!! ( haha is mel who reminded me that i was brave la! ) some of the rides huh really no fun lah....like that open canal ride....so boring..waste our time queueing!! but the group ride was great la!haha although i was the only girl in the float with 4 other "cockcroaches" (ops! who are these 4?? mel dan renjie wenyao!),we had fun splashing water at each other! but then, the guys splashed more on me la!! .... : P <br />aiyo the wave pool scare me la! so deep! i cant reach the ground!! i so scare lor...then the stupid float so high cant get up all the time....(thanks daniel for lending me ur knees to step on! hahah)....haha!! me weijun and grace had such fun just to get onto the float lor..we kept capsizing!! haha.... oh ya!! the guys are bad!! they overturned me so many times!! kenneth! all his ideas!! see??? they knew i cant reach the ground but still overturn me?? they are so bad!! made me so pathetic lah! luckily they still got the heart to lend me their hands to hold on lah..or else i will just drown!! hahah.....but was fun!! : ) <br /> <br />back at the pit...wow dennis xingyun n olivia already there starting the fire!! by the time i finished my bath, food was ready!! haha kenneth barbarqued without wearing his clothes!! he sweating like mad la! haha...wow the food is gorgoeous!! i love the hotdog,the garlic bread n the orange squash!! ( i prepared one!!) heheheh....well as usual...we talked abt the same topic again! hahah....see?? the studio guys are always like tat! hhaha...they always tot i dun understand wat they talking abt...so were more" clean" in their discussions when i m ard lah...haha but u know wat...i understand lor! hahah....but is okie .. sort of listening to some educational lesson??!! hehehe... <br /> <br />i want to kill daniel!!! he made me cried 2 times in the chalet!!! first he scared me when we played the ghostly game...then 2nd night at the mahjong table! he so fierce la!! keep scolding me! i really freaked out lor...i nv knew i was so scare till i stood there and tears just starts flowing out....all his fault! <br /> <br />wow!! long blog! but i have yet to finish! haha too much feelings to convey to all those who are reading!! <br />hey, dearie studio mates! i missed every single one of u! i dunno wat to say but hope we are still as close when the semster starts! i really dun one to be separated with anyone of u ya....take care everyone! all the best!!! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9461556-110222243702874439?l=dreamygal-hui.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>lihuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13969662302542571068noreply@blogger.com0